A Multitude of Casualties

*` Forever The Sickest Kids

2008-11-13T03:52:00.001+08:00

*` Forever The Sickest Kids

FUCK. I. CAN`T. SLEEP.

WHERE THE HELL IS EVERYONE??

*` You`re Kidding Right?

2008-11-11T01:33:00.002+08:00

*` You`re Kidding Right?

Feels like you're miles from here,
in other towns with lesser names.
Where the unholy ghost doesn`t tell
Mary or William exactly what they want to hear.
You remember the house on Ridge Road
told you and the Devil to both just leave me alone.
If this is salvation, I can show you the trembling.
You`ll just have to trust me. I'm scared.

I am the patron saint of lost causes.
Aren`t we all to you just near lost causes?
Aren`t we all to you just lost

Tommy, you left behind
something that will mean everything right before you die.
What if you gained the whole world?
You`ve already lost four little souls from your life.
Widows and orphans aren`t hard to find.
They're home missing daddy who`s saving the abandoned tonight.
Wish your drinking would hurry and kill you.
Sympathy`s better than having to tell you the truth.

That you are the patron saint of lost causes.
All you are to them is now a lost cause.
All you are to them is now, causes.

Billy, don`t you understand?
Timothy stood as long as he could and now
you made his faith disappear.
More like a magician and less like a man of the cloth.
We`re not questioning God.
Just those he chose to carry on His cross.
We`re no better, you'll see.
Just all of us, the lost causes.

Aren`t we all to you just lost causes?
Are we all to you lost?
Lost causes
So all we are to you,
Is all we are, is all we are
All we are is all we are

Patron Saint, are we all lost like you?

Take what you will, what you will
And leave. Could you kill, could you kill me
If the world was on fire
and nothing was left but hope or desire
And take all that I could bring forth, is this hell
Or am I on the floor over-desperate?
Hold hands streaming of blood again?
And then take full weight of me
Guard my dreams, figure this out,
It`s me on my own. Helpless, hurting, hell
Will you stay strong as you promised?
Cause I`m stranded and bare.
Meanness is washed up in all that I am
is God. Take this and all,
Then grace takes me to a place
Of the father you never had
Ripping and breaking and tearing apart
This is not heaven
This is my hell.

Just kill me now. Pls.

*` Yes We Can

2008-11-05T02:57:00.000+08:00

*` Yes We Can

1st black president.
Yes we can!
Americans have decided to change. When will it be our turn?

Celebrate people.

XOXO

*` Inevitable

2008-11-04T00:47:00.001+08:00

*` Inevitable

It`s over.

So, now what?

Gosh, i seriously should go out more. This is not right way to live your life.

XOXO

*` Sugar, We're Goin' Down

2008-10-12T01:22:00.002+08:00

*` Sugar, We're Goin' Down

I don`t get you. You think i`m a bitch? I`ll show you. You think i`m fucking around? Alright i`ll fuck around. Why do you doubt everything? What`s the point if you don`t even trust me in the first place.

This is why i don`t like coming home. See what i`m coming home to.

Pointless.

I have nothing to prove to you. I know what i did and if you don`t believe. Fine by me.

*` I Forgot to Remember to Forget

2008-09-23T03:43:00.000+08:00

*` I Forgot to Remember to Forget

I learned something new today. I realized that i`m not so good in whatever i think i`m good at. I feel like a complete idiot for feeling this way. I hate being overly confident and have that shit slapping me right in the face. I had a hard time accepting it so i told myself life`s too short, but it didn`t make me feel better. My mind cannot stop thinking about this, wondering the reason why this happened. I could not think of a good enough reason i did so badly? It`s really difficult for me, and the worse thing was i could not accept the reason she gave me. I thought she made no sense whatsoever, and i cannot change my style of writing just to suit her.

I`ll get over this, like i always do. But i`ll never be able to write or say anything without thinking twice about my fucking language. Shit.

Oh gosh, this is like '06 all over. Fuck.

Three words. Eight letters. Say it.. and I`m yours.

*` Every Night Is Another Story

2008-09-22T00:45:00.004+08:00

*` Every Night Is Another Story

Did you ever wonder what it would be like if you weren't you anymore? If you were suddenly gone? How would your world react? Whatever you imagined is wrong. There's nothing romantic about death. I wonder if i, one day left this place, would it make a difference? Would people remember me? If they do, what am i remembered for?

So many questions. But there`s never an answer.

Would have carried you, to anywhere you pleased,
Even if my limbs were broken, and my body was diseased.
I can`t seem to operate from this far away.
There`s a million little voices telling me
I should have stayed.

THE SPILL CANVAS - Low Fidelity

*` Everything In Transit

2008-09-20T23:54:00.001+08:00

*` Everything In Transit

He has a freaking calendar. I WANT!!

http://www.danilo.com/Sport_Personalities/Products/Cristiano_Ronaldo_Calendar_2009

*` Sempurna

2008-09-18T03:20:00.001+08:00

*` Sempurna

"I`m not so fragile."
"Everyone is fragile. Everything beautiful is fragile."

Do you really mean that?

*` Of Own Goals, Red Cards, and A Rare Win

2008-09-14T02:49:00.001+08:00

*` Of Own Goals, Red Cards, and A Rare Win

What a day it has been, for me at least. First there was that big big lost. :( Well, i only watched like 20 mins of the 2nd half, and i can already see Manu weren`t at their best, so i won`t talk too much about it. Enjoy the victory while it lasts.

Oh had this mooncake gathering thing outside my house. The only fun thing was that there were so many lil kids running around, holding their cute lanterns, having the time of their life. Kids are adorable. Played with a few of them, you know i tend to talk in this baby voice when i`m around kids, it`s kinda creepy. I just realised it today. The food was alright, it was potluck so everyone brought their own food and let`s just say i can`t complain.

Then it was off to Ampang for the dinner. I was really anxious about it all. I really didn`t know how i would react to the whole thing. Haven`t seen her since it all happened. And it turns out i worried too much. There were many kids running around as well and they kept me entertained for awhile, and i just sat there and stoned. I felt like a stranger all of a sudden.

I tried putting myself in her shoes you know, see how, if this happens to me, will i handle it? And i came up with this. I would probably not get into the whole marriage thing, because honestly what`s up with this marriage thing anyway? It`s just a piece of paper right? But i have to remember she`s just 17, so i guess in the traditional kinda way, you get pregnant and you marry the guy. End of story. No buts no what ifs. That`s it.

So i guess the one thing i`ve learn from all this is.. use protection? Haha. Yeah right. And yeah, can`t wait for the baby!!

So tmrw there`s another dinner at her husband`s. It`s kinda weird saying "her husband". Still can`t get over the fact that she`s barely legal. Damn, i feel old.

Alright. That`s my story for the day. Manchester United will bounce back from this, you`ll see. :)

Take care, everyone.

XOXO

*` Cute Is What We Aim For

2008-09-12T23:08:00.000+08:00

*` Cute Is What We Aim For

OMG.

I`m really nervous about tmrw. My friend`s wedding dinner. I have no idea what i`m going to say to her. I feel really bad but at the same time i want to be there for her and all that.

Oh well, hope everything goes well. Had the worst day ever today. Fuck you, KTM.

Liverpool vs Manchester United. Can`t wait to see Berbatov. :)

Take care everyone.

XOXO

*` Your Ex-Lover Is Dead

2008-09-10T04:28:00.000+08:00

*` Your Ex-Lover Is Dead

All teenagers knew this was true. The process of growing up was nothing more than figuring out what doors hadn`t yet been slammed in your face. For years, parents tell you that you could be anything, have anything, do anything.
That`s why you`re so eager to grow up - until you get to adolescence and hit a big fat wall of reality.

As it turned out, you couldn`t have anything you wanted. You didn`t get to be pretty, smart, or popular just because you wanted it. You didn`t control your own destiny; you were too busy trying to fit in.

Even now, as you stand here, there a million parents setting their kids up for heartbreak.

It seems like everyone i know is going with the crowd and not doing what they want to do. I shouldn`t judge, i know it`s really hard.We`ve all been victims of peer pressure. Have you done something just because everyone else was pressuring you too?
I know i have.

I lost a friend today and I ran forever, through the hills of my petty mind. I searched for answers these muddied questions, a good friends grave, the hand that waves goodbye. But i couldn`t find any. You said you will always love me, but look what has become of us now. Merely strangers. I was packing my stuff the other day, and i found this letter you wrote a million years ago. Do you still remember that?

How can you go from being the "perfect" guy to the worst possible friend? What changed you? Is it me? Oh i don`t know. You were my last hope you know, i thought everyone would change except you. You will be the constant one, you will keep your promise, you will keep in touch. But i guess life really changes everything huh? You know one of the worst feelings in the world, is having to doubt something
you thought was unquestionable. Thank you for making me realize everyone is the same. There are no forever and ever in this world.

Do we speak in tongues to taste something? Or is it to convince ourselves that we know more than we do? All I know is I know nothing. It`d be naive to think I`m not still learning.

p/s Send me the pictures pls, anyone??

XOXO

*` What About Now?

2008-08-26T02:54:00.003+08:00

*` What About Now?

I`m still alive btw. Just figuring some things out.

Take care you guys. :)

*` Shut Up! Shut Up! Shut Up!

2008-07-11T12:03:00.002+08:00

*` Shut Up! Shut Up! Shut Up!

Blatter: Let Ronaldo go to Real

FIFA President Sepp Blatter has said Cristiano Ronaldo should be allowed to leave Manchester United for Real Madrid if he wants. "If the player wants to play somewhere else, then a solution should be found because if he stays in a club where he does not feel comfortable to play then it's not good for the player and for the club," he said. "There`s too much modern slavery, in transferring players or buying players. We are trying now to intervene in such cases. The reaction to the Bosman law is to make long-lasting contracts to keep the players, and then if he wants to leave there is only one solution, he has to pay his contract." When asked about the protracted wrangle over the 23-year-old Portugal winger`s future, Blatter insisted players should be allowed to leave with impunity when they want to move clubs. "The important thing is, we should also protect the player," he said. "I`m always in favour of protecting the player, and if the player he wants to leave, let him leave."
Daniel Taylor, The Guardian

Everybody who watches football knows that footballers are far away from being slaves. Wth are you talking about?

Fuck you, Sepp Blatter.

*` The Heart Of Everything

2008-07-10T10:31:00.002+08:00

*` The Heart Of Everything

I was watching Oprah yesterday and seen probably the saddest thing that is possible. I only managed to watch the last part of it and they showed this (i forgot the name) pets adoption centre. They had to kill like 14 dogs that day due to overcrowding. How sad is that? I coulln`t stop crying.

I mean i know this is happening but to see it personally it`s really heartbreaking. I really wish i could help them, i`m dying to have a dog. Unfortunately, i still live with my parents and let me just tell you they don`t like it. Sigh.

Oh well, you guys can adopt right? It really is better to adopt than to buy it from pet shops. There are many healthy animals at SPCA and it`s much cheaper and you`re doing something good for the world. That`s gotta feel good right?

So visit http://www.spca.org.my/ for more details. But the website is a bit outdated so it`s better for anyone interested to visit there instead. It`s at Ampang, and you can get the full address at the website above.

Act now before it`s too late. Adopt a pet now!!

XOXO

There were sounds in my head
Little voices whispering
That I should go and this should end
And I found myself listening

MISSY HIGGINS - Where I Stood

*` Tales Told By Dead Friends

2008-07-09T12:11:00.004+08:00

*` Tales Told By Dead Friends

- constant feelings of sadness, irritability, or tension
- decreased interest or pleasure in usual activities or hobbies
- loss of energy, feeling tired despite lack of activity
- a change in appetite, with significant weight loss or weight gain
- a change in sleeping patterns, such as difficulty sleeping, early morning awakening, or sleeping too much
- restlessness or feeling slowed down
- decreased ability to make decisions or concentrate
- feelings of worthlessness, hopelessness, or guilt
- thoughts of suicide or death

Out of the 9 symptoms above, i have at least 5 of them. How many do YOU have? To be honest, i don`t think i`m depressed or whatever, but lately i`ve been having some difficulties. I hope this is just another "phrase" i`m going through, and it`ll eventually go away. I mean, it`s not like no one loves me right? I still have friends (who are all overseas) and my family loves me?? Right, i am so not alone.

I`m not suicidal mind you, of course i`ve thought about it but i never have and never will have the courage to just do it. The main reason is that i just can`t leave my lil brother. He`s really the best thing that has ever happened to me and seeing him come home from school really makes my day. He`s really... amazing.

The reason i talked about this is not to be dramatic or whatever, but just to tell whoever`s reading that depression is a serious issue and cannot be taken lightly. If you have friends who have talked to you about this, you must listen. Who knows, you might be able to save their lives. You know the song "How to Save a Life"? Listen to it. Just because you think they`re irritating, you might just regret what you didn`t do or what you could`ve done. I think that feeling of what could`ve been stays with you forever.

Alright, i`m sure this is nothing. After all, i still love my food, and i haven`t lost any interest in football. If any of these happens, i`ll have to seek some help. Till then, i`ll just listen to more music, and spend more time with my family. :)

Have you ever thought that if one thing hadn`t happened, a whole set of things never would have either? Like dominoes in time, a single event kicked off an unstoppable series of changes that gained momentum and spun out of control, and nothing was ever the same again. Don`t ever doubt that a mere second can change your life forever. I`m scared actually to be talking about these kinda things, but i know my body and it`s not working properly at the moment. So i`ll get through this i`m sure.

Change is a funny thing. We are never quite sure what we are becoming, or why. Then, one day we look at ourselves and wonder who we are and how we got there. How did i get here, who am i? Why am i talking this thing that i never even gave a shit about last time because i thought i`ll always be happy? Moving on is a process. You have to promise yourself that you`re ready to let go.

Too often we don`t realize what we have until it`s gone. Too often we wait too late to say "I`m sorry .. I was wrong." Sometimes it seems we hurt the ones who are closest to our hearts & allow foolish things to tear us apart. I still have dreams and things i want to achieve. I want to be successful, i want a beautiful family. I want all those things, so i can`t be depressed right? I just can`t. I don't want to start thinking again. Not like I have this last week. I can't think again. Not ever again.

I don't want to start thinking again. Not like I have this last week. I can't think again. Not ever again. I don`t know if you`ve ever felt like that. That you wanted to sleep for a thousand years. And when you wake up, everything will be okay. Or just not exist. Or just not to be aware that you do exist. Or something like that. I think wanting that is very morbid and scary, but sometimes these thoughts do cross my mind. And when it does, i`m scared. I`m scared to think that what i could do and what could happen. That`s why i`m trying not to think. I just want it all to stop spinning.

There comes a time when every life goes off course. In this desperate moment who will you be? Will you let down your defenses and find solace in someone unexpected? Will you reach out? Will you face your greatest fears bravely or move forward with faith? Or will you succumb to the darkness in your soul?

It`s okay to be angry and never let go
It only gets harder the more that you know
When you get lonely if no one`s around
You know that I`ll catch you when you`re falling down
We came together but you left alone
And I know how it feels to walk out on your own
Maybe someday I will see you again
And you`ll look me in my eyes and call me your friend

YELLOWCARD - Empty Apartment

*` In Our Bedroom After The War

2008-07-08T11:07:00.004+08:00

*` In Our Bedroom After The War

She lives in this world surrounded by fakes, people she thought that matters. She`s alone with herself listening to people's pains when nobody will listen to hers. She`s been in love and nobody's loved her back.Now she just stands there with her heart in her hand, hoping you`ll love her and leave her empty hearted like all the rest.

[Wanted:]
Single f, under 33, must enjoy the sun, must enjoy the sea
[Sought by single m:] Mrs.Destiny, send photo to address, is it you and me?

[Reply to single m:]
My name is Caroline cell phone number here, call if you have the time
28 and bored, grieving over loss, sorry to be heavy but heavy is the cost, heavy is the cost

[Reply to Caroline:]
Thanks so much for response, these things can be scary
Not always what you want
How about a drink? The St.Jude club at noon?
I'll phone you first I guess
I hope I see you soon!

I never got your name, I assume you're 33
Your voice it sounded kind
I hope that you like me
When you see my face, I hope that you don't laugh
I'm not a film-star beauty
I sent a photograph
I hope that you don't laugh...

[Note to single m:]
Why did you not show up?
I waited for an hour and finally gave up
I thought once that I sw you, I thought that you saw me
I guess we'll never meet now
It wasn't meant to be
I was sure that you saw me, but it wasn't meant to be

[Wanted:]
single f, under 33, must enjoy the sun, must enjoy the sea
Sought by single m:
nothing too heavy, send photo to address
is it you?
or me?

STARS - Personal
(Ashley, you gotta listen to this!)

To date, it`s one of the best song from Stars. 'Your Ex-Lover Is Dead is by far the best Stars song, but this one comes close. Listen to the lyrics and open your heart. :) It`s eerily beautiful.

*` From A Basement On A Hill

2008-07-07T11:08:00.006+08:00

*` From A Basement On A Hill

Just some random pictures taken at this playground at my new place. We look so silly but we had so much fun! I look so happy, mind you it`s rare. Haha. My brother is sooooooooooooooooooooo cute!!! I wish he`d never grow up.

First it was my mom. Then my brother. And now, me. :( There must a bug going around the house, what with all the mess and all. My house is so unbelievably messy!! It`s like we`re migrating. I hate hate hate moving. But i hope in the end it`s all worth it. I`m getting excited, the day is getting closer. Btw, we hope we can move in on 26/07. That`s about 3 weeks from now. Hopefully everything would be done.

CARINA, I MISS YOU!!!!!!!!!!!

All right, what have you guys been up to? Take care alright.

XOXO

Is this the whole picture, Or is it just the start?
Is this the way you love me? You`re capturing my heart
I used to try and walk alone, But I've begun to grow
And when you tell me just to rest, I`m finally letting go
I let go.

FIREFLIGHT - Wrapped In Your Arms

*` So Wrong, It`s Right

2008-07-06T12:30:00.001+08:00

*` So Wrong, It`s Right

I don`t know why we all hang on to something we know we`re better off letting go. It`s like we`re scared to lose what we don`t even really have. Some of us say we`d rather have that something then absoutely nothing, but the truth is, "To have it halfway is harder than not having it at all."

I was stuck. I was in this place, in between my future and my past, and I wasn`t sure which one I wanted more. But I guess it was only natural, you know? To dream of a summer love from long ago, or nights you spent with friends you used to know. These people had long since gone, and part of you wanted them back, and God you hated to admit it. That was the funny part. Like admitting you missed people or things or times long ago made you weak or something, but it didn`t. And sometimes I would curl up by my window and stare off into the stars, dreaming of my future, the love and friends I had yet to come across. Part of me just wanted to throw myself into the future and the other part wanted me to hurl myself into my past and just go back to the way things were, even though I know that`s never gonna happen. But i guess deep down, i`ve always wish it would.

Sometimes I wonder if anything`s absolute anymore. Is there still right and wrong? Good and bad? Truth and lies? Or is everything negotiable, left to interpretation, grey. Sometimes we`re forced to bend the truth, transform it, cause we`re faced with things that are not of our own making. And sometimes things simply catch up to us. "It`s often said that no matter the truth, people see what they want to see. Some people may take a step back and see they were looking at the same big picture all along. Some people may see that their lies have almost caught up to them. Some people may see what was there all along. And then there are those other people, who run as far as they can so they don`t have to look at themselves."

I`m sitting alone and i think to myself, it`d be great if people could know, if we wore big tags or we threw big parties where only lost people could go, so we'd never think we're wrong, and we`d never feel alone

Kiss the way we were goodbye,
Goodbye and farewell;
First we live but then we die,
Goodbye, goodbye..

Pretty people standing by,
We pain, we pretend;
And we try and act surprised,
As we watch the world end.

LOW VS. DIAMOND - Heart Attack

*` The Good, The Bad, And The Ugly

2008-07-05T01:38:00.001+08:00

*` The Good, The Bad, And The Ugly

Guess what? I just found out my 16 year old sweet little friend might be pregnant. Her parents must be going ballistic. Then i asked my mom, would you rather have a daughter with teenage pregnancy or someone like me? She looked at me and i felt that she`d rather have the former even though she didn`t say anything. How am i suppose to feel about that.

Back to teenage pregnancy. Hello, condoms anyone? Never mind that they`re having sex, they didn`t use protection. She`s like a little sister to me and i feel very protective of her but at the same time i can`t help but think of the baby. How cute it would be and all that. Am i crazy? I`ve always secretly wanted to have a gay friend, and someone who got pregnant at 16. OMG. I AM SO SCREWED UP!

Take care, little girl. I`ll be here for you. :)

XOXO

And honestly, I have been begging for answers
That you and only you can give to me
A voice crying loud
I`ve been crying for days now
And as I start to run, I stop to breathe
And I was nearly scared to death
Why you left in paragraphs
The words were nearly over us
You stop and turn and grab your bags

And I`ll be here by the ocean
Just waiting for proof that there's sunsets and silhouette dreams
All my sand castles fall like the ashes of cigarettes
And every waves drags me to sea
I could stand here for hours
Just to ask God the question, "Is everyone here make-believe?"
With a tear in His voice, He said, "Son, that`s the question."
Does this deafening silence mean nothing to no one but me?

As hours move to minutes
And minutes take longer to break
I will be desperately awaiting
But my tongue won't fall apart
And we've been sitting here for hours
All alone and in the dark

So let me think of to word it
Is it too soon to say 'perfect'?
If I could find another thirty minutes somewhere
I`m sure everything would find me
All that`s left is just to sing

MAYDAY PARADE - You Be The Anchor That Keeps My Feet On The Ground, I'll Be The Wings That Keep Your Heart In The Clouds

*` Scream & Light Up the Sky

2008-07-04T11:32:00.002+08:00

*` Scream & Light Up the Sky

Sigh, it says it all doesn`t?

p/s Friends, please send me pictures that we took, cuz i lost them all and i would like you guys to send it to me if you ever find the time. Thank you.

Have a nice day.

XOXO

*` Feeling Rather Bitchy

2008-07-03T02:22:00.000+08:00

*` Feeling Rather Bitchy

It didn`t even cross your mind to call, or you forgot again? I waited and waited, called, msged and yet you couldn`t find the time to reply?? Hello? You do realize that the presents are for you, and the reason we met up yesterday was FOR YOU?? I don`t know how anyone forget things like this.

You know, sometimes i wish i never try so hard, and instead, someone tries so hard as me.

This is all very confusing to me.

:(

*` This Is Why I Keep Coming Back

2008-06-30T12:01:00.000+08:00

*` This Is Why I Keep Coming Back

Iker Casillas is really one of the best.

From one of the best to probably the most unluckiest man on earth, he has finished runners-up a whooping 9 times!! I feel for you Mr, if you keep this up, Chelsea will never win the PL with you in the club. Keep trying.

It sounds cliche already, but it is true. The beautiful game of football won! Spain deserves every everything. It`s been 44 years, but

Spain

has finally broken the jinx, and perhaps shed the labels of being “Choke Artists” and "Underachievers" as well. I`m so happy for them, they`ve finally proven that they`re not just a bunch of pretty faces. And Germany should be happy too. They really weren`t at their best, and they really can`t complain.

This was such a different final compare to 4 years ago, where Greece won the cup playing defensively, look where are they are, they finished lowest out of all 16 times. 0 points. Nada. Attacking football is making a comeback!! Great for us football fans out there.

You know when you watch a World Cup or Euro, you see those people waving flags, singing the national anthem, shouting their lungs out, i really wonder when will us Malaysians have a chance to cheer on our football team, probably never. But well one can only hope.

We’ve seen some great moments in this finals and to me this is probably one of the most exciting I`ve seen so far, what with Russia and Turkey shocking everyone. England was not missed at all. We could have seen many more goals, but the best moment for me, was when the players grabbed Luis Aragones after the match and repeatedly throw him up in the air. I was very worried there to be honest.The 69 years old didn’t like it all and could be heard yelling “basta basta” (stop it, stop it) before they let him off and he angrily walked away with a bent back. Haha, he cracks me up.

Oh well, another tournament comes to an end, can`t wait for the World Cup to see what young teams like Spain and Russia can do. I love football more every single day, and with the new season coming up, hopefully attacking football will triumph again.

To end this, here`s what a guy would do for tickets. :) Hope you got lucky.

Viva Espana!!!

XOXO

I`m part of something, The bigger part of nothing,
And i`m debating, Do i even like me?
And everybody`s trying so hard to be so cool;
But you know what`s cool?
Not trying.

FERRAS – My Beautiful Life

*` It`s About Time

2008-06-27T05:42:00.000+08:00

*` It`s About Time

Spain, finally!! They were so amazing, really the most creative team in the tournament. Their passes were good, the finishing was pretty awesome as well. Torres should have scored. But they`re finally in the final after 24 years! Can you believe it?

Please let Spain win it. Germany has been dodgy and they don`t deserve to win it. Spain do!!

Come on!!!!

* p/s Apparently Ronaldo isin`t leaving. Sigh, when will this ever end??

I`ll borrow words from all my favourite paragraphs
To write about all of these faded things
We hope would mean the most to me
Each line is sent i have found a new pages of hope for the days when I fell like I`ve lost
everything

MAYDAY PARADE - The Last Something That Meant Anything

So Wrong, It`s Right

2008-06-19T09:56:00.002+08:00

So Wrong, It`s Right

So Celtics won the NBA, Russia got into the quarters (Guus Hiddink, you`re really the man) and tmrw morning it`s Portugal vs Germany. Shit, i have a bad feeling about this. Pls go away. Since we`re in the quarterfinal stage, i`d make a daring assumption and say that it will be Portugal and Netherlands in the final. Netherlands are on the roll right now, and I don`t think anyone`s strong enough for them. But Italy might come from behind as well, it seems like they have woken up, like finally. World champions. LOL.

Enough about sports. Time to talk about me. It`s been awhile, hasn`t it? I`ve abandoned my blog, but at the same time i`m mad that no one has really asked about it. Aren`t you guys worried? Or you`ve found some other more interesting blogs to read. Well, i guess i only have myself to blame for not giving a shit about this blog of mine. It seems like i`ve just lost interest in it all of a sudden. It might be okay for you, but it`s really weird for me because this used to be my venting machine, where i type what i want, scream obscenities and no one would give a shit. Now i realize people`s feelings are involved and i have to be more careful with my words. Sigh, story of my poor poor life.

Just a quick update, remember i said i`m moving to Cheras. Why, yes i`m moving, but not in June, but wayyy back in August. Because i`m Chinese and there are some beliefs that you don`t mess with, the earliest late date in August 31st. Which is, in my opinion toooo late!! I`ve been waiting for this move since it started renovating, in March btw and now it`s not even done yet?? I know, it sucks. Well, can`t really put the blame on anyone, but i found out the Malaysians in general are lazy and very irresponsible. We like to do everything but later we find out that we are not capable of doing it all.

I`ve already made up my wish list which i hope i can get it by the time September rolls around. I`m saving money, haha i can`t believe it. Me? Saving money. It`s hilarious. But i tend to splurge when i have the chance once in a while. And you know on what? BOOKS & FOOD!! I`m such a nerd, a lame one as well. Oh i`m a fat nerdy pig. Yeah, that`s me.

Time to go do some chores now.

Take care everyone
I miss you...

XOXO

Forgive me, I`m trying to find my calling
I`m calling at night
I don`t mean to be a bother
But have you seen this girl?
She`s been running through my dreams
And it`s driving me crazy, it seems
I'm gonna ask her to marry me.

ALL TIME LOW – Remembering Sunday

*` One Of The Best

2008-06-16T18:30:00.000+08:00

*` One Of The Best

Euro 2008 is turning into one hell of a tournament. There were dramas and goals were flying in everywhere. It started with Spain thrashing Russia 4-1, Portugal beating Czech Republic 3-1, Holland thrashing France and Italy (they were amazing). There were surprises thrown in as well. Croatia beating Germany 2-1, Spain beating Sweden 2-1 at the very last minute, and the best of all is Turkey beating Czech Republic 3-2 after being 2-0 down and 20 minutes left. It was really amazing to watch and I gotta say this is turning into one of the best tournaments I`ve seen in awhile.

A Ten-man Turkey side made the greatest of escapes to book its Euro 2008 quarter-final berth as they came from 2-0 down to stun the Czech Republic 3-2 overnight.

Definitely one of the best match so far.

However, staying up at 245 is no fun at all. And let me tell you, it kills me. I wake up feeling like a zombie. All for the love of the ball.

No regrets though. :)

*` What`s Left To Say?

2008-05-28T20:47:00.001+08:00

*` What`s Left To Say?

Enough said.

Running, down corridors through, automatic doors
Got to get to you, got to see this through
I see hope is here, in a plastic box
I`ve seen christmas lights, reflect in your eyes

ATHLETE - Wires

*` Flying Over Bus Stops

2008-05-24T00:19:00.002+08:00

*` Flying Over Bus Stops

*` We Are The Kings

2008-05-22T06:30:00.000+08:00

*` We Are The Kings

The defining moment.

Best in England, Best in Europe, the BEST damn team in the world. Hell yeah!!

Glory glory Man United,
Glory glory Man United,
Glory glory Man United,
As the reds go marching UP UP UP!!

*` The Final Countdown

2008-05-21T21:26:00.000+08:00

*` The Final Countdown

Sorry about the title. Can`t think of any. Drinking coffee to stay awake is just a way of life. It sucks being on the other side of the world and watching football in the wee hours. At least i know the whole world`s watching with me. :)

Go, Manchester United!

XOXO

*` Where Do We Go From Here?

2008-05-20T07:30:00.000+08:00

*` Where Do We Go From Here?

I`m sure by now everyone has heard the news, seen the pictures and talked about it. It`s been a exactly a week and it`s still making news. Once in awhile, we`ll hear stories about great survivals and some very tearful losses. It kinda touches me that it seems like everyone is in this together. I think that`s really important and my heart goes out to all the people in China. CHINESE are strong and we`ve survived many many things, and i`m sure we get through this as well.

Take care & God bless.

XOXO

Whenever I`m alone with you, You make me feel like I am free again.
Whenever I'm alone with you, You make me feel like I am clean again.
However far away, I will always love you
However long I stay, I will always love you
Whatever words I say, I will always love you
I will always love you.

The Cure - Love Song

*` Running To Stand Still

2008-05-16T23:15:00.000+08:00

*` Running To Stand Still

Hey everyone. My computer crashed on me last week so had to reformat it much to my disgust. I hate it. 2nd time. Dell, you suck! Well, you know what happens when your comp crashes, everything`s gone. My pictures, SONGS... But weirdly enough, they managed to "save" my videos which is weird. But i want all my songs back!!!! It`s gonna take ages to for me to get it all back. Btw, does anybody know how to get my songs from the ipod to my comp. PLs, i need your help!!

So here`s the pictures of the champs!! :)

Cheers!
Can`t wait for Moscow.

p/s A Russian team won the UEFA CUp @ Manchester.
Manchester winning Champions League @ Russia?? Hell yeah.

I was true as the sky is blue
I couldn`t soon say the same for you
So now I find denial in my eyes
I'm mesmerized by the picture that's in my mind

*` Champions Again!!!!!!!!

2008-05-12T15:35:00.000+08:00

*` Champions Again!!!!!!!!

Chelsea fans can shut the fuck up!!
WWWOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

More pictures will be coming up.

XOXO

*` Full Hearts, Clear Eyes, Can`t Lose

2008-05-12T12:11:00.000+08:00

*` Clear Eyes, Full Hearts, Can`t Lose

The final day.
Drama. Drama. Drama.
Can`t wait!!

Wigan vs Manu @ 10pm

Watch it!

*` Coffee & Cigarettes

2008-04-09T01:45:00.000+08:00

*` Coffee & Cigarettes

... Taste the same.
Gosh, i miss my friends. :(

Deep inside these burning buildings
Voices die to be heard
Years we spent teaching a lesson
We ourselves had never learned

RISE AGAINST - Drones

*` The Sufferer & The Witness

2008-04-04T03:42:00.000+08:00

*` The Sufferer & The Witness

Watched this cute lil movie during the weekend. I really liked it. There`s nothing i don`t like about this, it`s short (abt 1 hr 25 mins), it`s funny, it`s really cute and Jim Carrey and Steve Carell are in it. So there`s pretty much no reason not to watch this.

There`s so many others that i wanna watch. :(

Lately i`ve been having so many questions but i just can`t seem to find an answer or any answer for those questions.

XOXO.

All because of you
I believe in angels.
Not the kind with wings,
Not the kind with halos;
The kind that bring you home
When home becomes a strange place.

RISE AGAINST – The Good Left Undone

*` One For The Kids

2008-04-01T02:15:00.001+08:00

*` One For The Kids

Trust is a fragile thing.
Once earned, it affords us tremendous freedom.
But once trust is lost, it can be impossible to recover.
Of course, the truth is, we never know who we can trust.
Those we`re closest to can betray us and total strangers can come to our rescue.
In the end, most people decide to trust themselves.
It really is the simplest way to keep from getting burned.

I will disappoint you.
I am everything I wish I wasn`t and nothing I say I am,
I don`t deserve the love I already know you`ll give me.
I`m a wasting clock, ticking away;
Timeless, priceless, perfect imperfection.
Waste your life, waste your goals,
Throw it all away to be the one thing you hate.

I`m everything, I`m nothing;
I`m hideous, I`m beautiful;
I`m a terrible friend, I am your best friend;
I am a liar, I am honesty;
I am cruelty, I am kindness;
I am hate, I am love;
I am a pathetic existence.

But when you walk into my life, you won`t see that.
I will laugh and smile, and be everything that you think I am;
Everything I can never understand.
I`ll be everything to you.
I`ll be the stars, the magic, the dream come true in your eyes.
I`ll be your blonde haired, petite, porcelain skinned doll.
I`ll be the perfect someone that you'll never know.
But when you blink, I`ll be gone.
I am just a beautiful memory.

XOXO.

Take care. :)

I am nothing now and it`s been so long
Since I`ve heard the sound,
The sound of my only hope
This time I will be listening.

PARAMORE – My Heart

*` Bittersweet World

2008-03-27T00:55:00.000+08:00

*` Bittersweet World

It was a pretty "feisty" game with one sending off (i think he deserved it, mind you). But he left the referee no choice. Anyhow, it totally spoiled the game. What he did was just plain stupid seriously. Didn`t he learn anything from the Cole incident? He`s another rude fella. Ugh. Anyway i watched and i know it was 3-0 but it wasn`t really that eventful for me. We had far too many chances and it could`ve been a much bigger scoreline.

Do you realize that in BIG games like this, the "stars" always fail to shine. For the past week before this game, everyone`s talking about who`s better? Ronaldo or Torres and all that. But look what happened. Ronaldo, Torres and Gerrard. Where were they? Didn`t make much of an impact. Sigh, i really wish Ronaldo wouldn`t go missing in this big games anymore. There`s still plenty more to come and we kinda need him to perform when it matters.

How was YOUR weekend? God, i sound so stupid talking to myself, ain`t it? It`s just i`ve been pretty messed up lately, what with the new house renovation (it`s gonna give me a heart attack pretty soon i`m sure) and my parents are always screaming at each other, and i just have something to ask, where the hell have you been? What happened to all the messages and all that? Busy is not an excuse. Everyone`s busy.

I just miss you that`s all. :(

Take care.

XOXO

We`re too young
I hate to love you
The night sky
Hangs above you
But you can`t be missed
If you never go away

COBRA STARSHIP – You Can`t Be Missed If You Never Go Away

*` Gotta Be Somebody`s Blues

2008-03-22T02:45:00.001+08:00

*` Gotta Be Somebody`s Blues

Hey y`all! This is just gonna be a picture post. :)

That day @ Pavilion

This was all taken in the loo. And here i am thinking that i`ve lost my touch. Wth.

Next, KAMPACHI!! The food`s really amazing, go try it out you guys..

This is the salmon sushi. Must try!

This is the soft shell crab. Damn, it`s good!

It`s the salmon ramen.

The chicken.

Next the fish spa. :)

At first, it was pretty gross, with lots of screaming and all. But later it was alright, you kinda get used to it. All in all, it was a "eye-opening" experience.

That`s all folks. I`m doing alright in case some of you are wondering. Just trying not to be suicidal or anything. Trying to live my life. I`m thinking of all of you. :)

Take care.

p/s I`m a fat shit and a failure. How fucked up is that?

I don`t have a prayer if
There is no charity in your heart
Couldn`t you spare me?
I`ve done my part

*` Rocket Ronaldo; Ronaldo Rocket

2008-03-20T11:09:00.000+08:00

*` Rocket Ronaldo; Ronaldo Rocket

He literally saved us for the last four games.

Pretty amazing huh?

Back to the street where we began
Feeling as good as lovers can
Yeah we`re feeling so good
Picking up things we shouldn`t read
It looks like the end of history as we know
It`s just the end of the world

*` Political Tsunami

2008-03-09T20:47:00.000+08:00

*` Political Tsunami

BN wins federal govt but opposition takes five states.

Pretty scary, isin`t? Democracy is very much alive here in Malaysia, and all of a sudden i`m interested in politics.

I`m amazed. Can you believe i actually stayed up all night for the results? I can`t either. :(

*` A Twist In My Story

2008-03-07T07:27:00.000+08:00

*` A Twist In My Story

That day @ 1Utama.

They say that pictures speak a thousand words, so i`ll let them do the talking this time. :)

We started off with Paddington`s (the pancakes are awesome!!), it`s my goal to try EVERY SINGLE THING on the menu. I`m serious.

I was drinking the hot choco with marshmallows!

And they were just drinking plain water, still wanna pose somemore.

We managed to finish everything, well almost everything.

Wow, we didn`t waste any time, did we?

Later it was Pull & Bear.

It was a day filled with laughter and lots and lots of cam-whoring. This is the first time we really got together since they got back. And that was like 3 months ago. It was a great day and can`t wait for you guys to be back!!

I`m glad we took pictures, reminds me of old times. :)

Love you two;

XOXO

So we stand here now and no one knows us at all.
I won`t get used to this;
I won`t get used to being gone.
And going back won`t feel the same if we aren`t staying,
Going back to get away after everything has changed.

PARAMORE - Franklin

*` Tree Hugger

2008-03-05T01:30:00.000+08:00

*` Tree Hugger

Although it is such a singular word, there are many variations of alone. There is the alone of an empty beach at twilight. There is the alone of an empty hotel room. There is the alone of being caught in a throng of people. There is the alone of missing a particular person. And there is the alone of being with a particular person and realizing you are still alone.

Hey hey, i`m gonna talk about this movie "Once". And how i came about loving this really awesome movie.

On one "fateful" morning, i was just flipping through channels and channels cuz as usual, there`s nothing on Astro. Then i stopped at Channel [V], and they were playing this really beautiful song, i waited until the end to see who`s the artist and all that. It was Glen Hansard and Markéta Irglová - Falling Slowly. I just had to dwl it. Asked my dear Jeeva to dwl it for me, and since then i`ve been hooked.

I realise that it was from the soundtrack of this little movie called "Once". I said it was little because none of the two leads were professional actors and the songs throughout the whole movie was just amazing. The great thing about it is that it`s very original. I`ve never seen anything like this before. This movie was shot for a mere $160,000 in just 17 days. And Markéta Irglová, you`re one of the most beautiful woman i`ve ever seen. Giselle, step aside man!

I love the song, i love the movie. What more can i say?

The reason i`m writing this is to tell everyone who`s reading this, go grab yourself the "Once" dvd and you`ll know what i`m talking about. It has gotten some good reviews since it was released, and the song won an Oscar!! And i`ll upload a video from the performance, you`ll get goosebumps seriously. Sorry can`t be done. Check it out at this site. http://youtube.com/watch?v=87f5nj7cOjc

Enjoy. :)

And seriously, please please watch this movie.

XOXO

I`m not gonna write you a love song
`cause you asked for it
`cause you need one, you see
I`m not gonna write you a love song
`cause you tell me it`s
Make or break in this.

*` Are You Okay?

2008-03-04T15:41:00.000+08:00

*` Are You Okay?

Imagine the people you see everyday right now, the people you would least expect to not see tomorrow. In a couple of years, college will come and with it new friends and new experiences. The people you see everyday in the halls, your friends, and some of them, your best friends, will disappear from your life, each going their own way. You`ll see them once every ten years at some random reunion if that. These are the people you have grown up with, and become friends with them or even if you're not, there will come a time when many of them won`t even cross your mind. The truth is you'll see your best friends maybe once a year, because time goes by so fast and everyone is so busy. Enjoy today and enjoy tomorrow because these days come but once in your lives. Be thankful for what you have and most of all, for who you have in your life because life`s plans for you may bring you away from these people. But no matter what anyone says, and no matter what time can do, your heart will always bring the best back, and your memories with them will forever hold a place in your soul.

*` Singles Awareness Day

2008-02-15T15:45:00.000+08:00

*` Singles Awareness Day

Didn`t know abt this word until Shuang told me. I`m glad i went out today. It`s better than sitting around at home doing god knows what. This year is actually the first time i`m not spending it with my friends. I remember we would get all kinds of thing during Valentine`s. This year was different and i like different.

I know how it feels to be surrounded by love sick couples and it seems like we`re the only ones who were single. We watched Jumper, thank God it wasn`t any love story. Don`t think i`ll be able to take it as i was already surrounded with couples and got scolded by this ah lian bitch who can`t even speak English properly. Fuck you. I like to talk and mind you, i wasn`t even THAT loud.

And that was a day well spent.

Thanks girl for making it extra special. This day doesn`t really work well for me and you made me laugh my ass of.

XOXO

*` Life Is...

2008-01-31T19:48:00.000+08:00

*` Life Is...

Sorry boys and girls.

I`m not in the mood. I have no idea what to write anymore and do give me some time.

Meanwhile, go do some shopping and think of me!!

XOXO

p/s Can`t believe i`m not going to Switchfoot. Oh well, there`s always Youtube.

So we bottled and shelved all our regrets,
Let them ferment and came back to our senses,
Drove back home and slept a few days,
Woke up and laughed at how stupid we used to be.

*` The Art Of Growing Up

2008-01-23T12:45:00.000+08:00

*` The Art Of Growing Up

Sometimes it feels like it was yesterday. We graduated high school, saying goodbye. That feeling that you get at seventeen or eighteen that nobody in the history of the world has ever been this close, has ever loved as fiercely or laughed as hard or cared as much. Sometimes it feels like it was yesterday and sometimes it feels like someone else’s memory.

Time is creeping behind me; Surrounding around me
Claiming the words so desperately
Now give me a reason that i can believe in
Time is something you cant rewind.

*` Oh! Gravity

2008-01-21T14:05:00.000+08:00

*` Oh! Gravity

Omg. This movie is fucking amazing. Seriously people you gotta watch it. Let me tell you before you watch it, just keep an open mind and try not to expect too much. You might just be surprised. Watched it with my family and only my my dad and i liked it, so either my mom has good taste or i have very bad taste, so watch it and tell me what you guys think k. It`s filmed on a video camera so you might get woozy after watching it. And best of all, it`s a short, efficient, terrifying monster movie, nothing more and no less. It`ll keep you on the edge of your seats and wow, there are some scenes that really freaked me out!

But seriously, trust me it`s really really cool. Saw the trailer few months back and i was hooked. I don`t know why, but there`s not much info about this movie and they wanted to keep everything hush hush but now it`s out and it`s in the cinemas so

WATCH IT!!

It cost me 12 bucks, which is alot to me mind you, but it was soooo worth it.

What you doing now? Get your ass off your seats and get yourself some tickets!

XOXO

And this is the sound of a broken heart beating
Almost died when I found your heart cheating
I won't survive very much longer
You got to keep this broken heart stronger

*` Since You`ve Been Gone

2008-01-19T11:15:00.000+08:00

*` Since You`ve Been Gone

Hey everyone. I apologize for the sad condition my blog is in right now. I`m becoming one of those people who`re just too lazy to blog nowadays, i promise i`ll change. As hard as it is for me to believe, there`re actually a handful of ppl who actually come here to see what`s been going on with my life, and for that i thank you. It`s sweet. And while you guys are here, please leave a message or some sort, just to let me know what you think. It`s nothing but it`s okay if no one do it.

The new year had just came and gone, and now we`re already 18 days into 2008. Time really flies huh? I`ve been working almost everyday now, and most of my friends are pretty busy which is cool, i mean at least they`re learning something. For me, it seems like i`m just wasting my time.

Lately, i`ve been thinking about high school and my friends. I wonder what they`re doing right now. Feels just like yesterday i would wake up at 530am and get myself ready for school. And to think that of all people, it`s me that can`t seem to let go and move on. It started late last year when i realized i truly really miss high school and all my friends, and till now it`s still really hard to me to accept that everything has changed. I`ve come to terms with some of them, knowing that we`ll never be the same again so right now it`s just a small group of us. And i`m fine with that, it means i`m not alone.

My dear friend Ashley left for the Hawaii on Dec 26th, i can still remember that day. I took the KLIA express for the first and probably the last time to the airport. It didn`t cost much, and i know it was worth every minute. And i`m really happy that she`s doing very well over there, which somehow makes it easier for me to know that she`s enjoying herself. Thanks for the call dear. It means alot. :)

Few weeks later, Annie left. It was hard. I`ll think of the times when we would laugh our ass off, trust this girl is one funny woman. She cracks me up every single time. Tears will come, and honestly i`m suprised that i`ll actually miss her. We`ve never really been close but i guess we`ve been through alot, though i know not much about her, she seems to know loads about me. And she really seems like she cares about me and that`s the best thing you could ask for. Those two days that we spent together was amazing even though it was short and it seems like we didn`t do much but it was time well spent. I`m still uploading the pics cuz i took so many but it`ll up pretty soon. I haven`t been able to get hold of her but hopefully she`s doing fine as well. Enjoy the slopes girl!

I`ve been relying on coffee to jump start me through the day, because i haven`t been sleeping much lately, and last time when i couldn`t sleep i know there`s someone who`s awake as well and it makes it easier to go to bed. Now that`s gone and it`s gonna take some time for me to get use to it.

Nothing much happened at home except due to the school year starting, my mom`s been really stressed up about my brother as usual. Sometimes i wonder how long this will last. She`s really amazing, i guess in a way i look up to her but somehow i just can`t see myself doing what she`s done right now. Guess i`ll be a bad mother.

A new year, a new me. Hopefully this year will not be anything like the last year. The truth is last year was probably the hardest period of my life and i got through it, so i`m glad. I`ve been reading quite alot lately, and i love it. I`m a nerd. Lol.

Oh yeah, Switchfoot`s coming to town! I`m really excited about this but there isin`t any mosh pit or whatever, so i`m still not sure whether i should be going. But my friend told me they sound great live, so i guess i`ll go. Not sure yet, Shuang you`re my date!

Alright, that`s a quick update of the ins and outs. I`ll try to keep this updated. Dinnertime.

Take care everyone.

XOXO

To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do

*` Isin`t He Wonderful?

2008-01-15T15:55:00.000+08:00

*` Isin`t He Wonderful?

1st hat-trick and let me tell you there`s more to come. It was worth staying up in the morning. Every minute of it.

Marry me!!!

We all fall sometimes
Get burned sometimes
Get cut wide open
Thought you’d learn by now

*` As I Am

2008-01-05T10:55:00.000+08:00

*` As I Am

Where did I go wrong?
I can`t be your friend.
After where we`ve been,
I can`t see your face again.

You leave your troubles at the door,
I feel we don`t know what we`re fighting for;
Feels like I`m a prisoner.

*` Doesn`t Make It Any Easier

2007-11-26T12:15:00.000+08:00

*` Doesn`t Make It Any Easier

WHAT MAJOR IS RIGHT FOR YOU?
created with QuizFarm.com

You scored as Psychology/Sociology

You should strongly consider majoring (or minoring) in Psychology, Sociology, or related majors (e.g., Counseling, Industrial-Organizational (I-O) Psychology, Social Work, or other social science majors).

It is possible that the best major for you is your 2nd, 3rd, or even 5th listed category, so be sure to consider ALL majors in your OTHER high scoring categories (below). You may score high in a category you didnt think you would--it is possible that a great major for you is something you once dismissed as not for you. The right major for you will be something 1) you love and enjoy and 2) are really great at it.

Consider adding a minor or double majoring to make yourself standout and to combine your interests. Psychology and Sociology are both great minors to add to any major. Please post your results in your myspace/blog/journal.

Psychology/Sociology

56%

English/Journalism/Comm

56%

History/Anthropology/LiberalArts

50%

HR/BusinessManagement

50%

French/Spanish/OtherLanguage

50%

PoliticalScience/Philosophy

50%

Visual&PerformingArts

50%

Biology/Chemistry/Geology

44%

Education/Counseling

38%

Nursing/AthleticTraining/Health

31%

Accounting/Finance/Marketing

25%

Religion/Theology

19%

Physics/Engineering/Computer

Mathematics/Statistics

I`m really lost here. Note that Mathematics/Statistics - 0%!!

??

I know a place that we forgot,
A place where we won't get caught in;
They won`t know who we are.

I know a place where we can hide out,
And turn our hearts inside out;
They won't know who we are.

*` If I Woke Up Next To You

2007-11-22T16:23:00.000+08:00

*` If I Woke Up Next To You

In nineteen minutes, you can mow the front lawn, color your hair, watch a third of a hockey game. In nineteen minutes, you can bake scones or get a tooth filled out by a dentist; you can fold laundry for a family of five.

Nineteen minutes is how long it took the Tennessee Titans to sell out of tickets to the play-off. It`s the length of a sitcom, minus the commercials. It`s the driving distance from the Vermont border to the town of Sterling, New Hampshire.

In nineteen minutes, you can order a pizza and get it delivered. You can read a story to a child or have your oil changed. You can walk a mile. You can sew a hem.

In nineteen minutes, you can stop the world, or you can just jump off it.

In nineteen minutes, you can get revenge.

This is how Jodi Picoult started her book, Nineteen Minutes. Since then, i haven`t been able to tear myself away from it except moments like this where i just had to write about it. This book talks about what it means to be different in our society, who has the right to judge someone else, and whether a person is ever whom they seem to be. She`s a really amazing author, i`ve read almost all her books and it keeps getting better. I LOVE HER!!

Can you imagine, you wake up the next morning just like every other mornings, getting ready to go to school thinking that this day was no different than any other day, not knowing that the day ahead will probably the one day that you`ll remember for the rest of your life?

Go get one and read it yourself. You`ll be captivated. I`m sure!!

It`s not over tonight,
Just give me one more chance to make it right.
I may not make it through the night,
I won't go home without you.

*` What Do Stars Do?

2007-11-22T15:00:00.000+08:00

*` What Do Stars Do?

They shine.

Finally watched it. And i gotta say it was an enjoyable movie even though it was abit too long. Watch it if you haven`t, it`s a nice one, and it amazes me how one person`s hair can make such a big difference on the person`s appearance. Speaking of hair, i just dyed my hair the other day and i absolutely hate it! It`s hideous. :(

Watched it with my sister. For the first time in my life, i`m actually scared of vampires. They looked so scary here. It looks real, very human-like, and they eyes are like really beautiful in a weird kinda way. It`s glazzy.

This is what i have to say for this movie. Women are manipulative and men are horny. Notice that i put women first, instead of men. That`s what this movie was about. The effects were awesome, but the storyline just doesn`t do it for me. Apparently he`s some big hero, and i`m just thankful that we didn`t have to read poems about this brave man. I know i`ll be bored to death.

I`m so excited about the match. Just hope they don`t disappoint.

I found the Cristiano book and it`s RM 99.90. I think it`s very expensive. Guess i`ll have to start saving again.

Fuck. He`s hot.

The water vault burst, it was so beautiful from afar. And it was taller than that big ass tree in front of my house.

People, pray for England?

Take care.

XOXO.

I know that I can't take back all of the mistakes but I will try,
although it`s not easy I know you believe me cause I would not lie.
Don`t believe their lies, told from jealous eyes they don`t understand (I`m sorry)
I won`t break your heart, I won`t bring you down, but I will have to say.

*` Happy Love Sick

2007-11-20T04:45:00.000+08:00

*` Happy Love Sick

Dad just came back from China, and he bought gifts!!

You guys know about the Beijing 2008 right? He bought this cute lil keychains of the 5 mascots. It`s really cute, but it cost about RM 12 for one. That`s about RM 60 for 5. I think it`s not too expensive, since these items are suppose to boost China`s economy, as if it needs anymore boosting, but yeah at least it`s practical.

He specifically bought this for me apparently. It`s whiskey. I like my JD, but i`ve never tried this before, and i was asking him wth. He said it`s free, so can you imagine how much he has to spend in those clubs to get free liquor? *Rolls eyes.

And this. Hmm let me see, honestly i don`t know what this is, but i think one`s a camel cuz it has two humps, and the other`s a horse cuz it has one hump? He said he bought it for fun. Where are we gonna put it is gonna be another problem. Oh well, i guess it`s forgivable since it`s my dad, and it`s already quite impressive that nothing`s broken and he didn`t lose anything. I`m just glad he`s back, no more transport problem, fuckers!

I`ve been pretty much stuck in front of the comp these few days, catching up on all the series that i love. I`m absolutely addicted to Gossip Girl, it`s almost like The OC, yet it`s more interesting. Friday Night Lights is still the best show ever and Wentworth Miller still look as hot as ever, even though he`s wearing sweaty shirts and all that. :)

Oh yeah, my brother said the "F" word. I got so freaked out cuz he`s only 8! I`ve never use any foul language at home so he most probably got it from his friends in school. Kids huh? He already knows more than me when i was 8, but now it`s just so scary..

Oh well, i`m have my daily fix of melodrama, so everyone take care.

XOXO.

Took me for granted and told me it`s through,
Picked from my pockets and smiled.
Empty is nothing and nothing is you,
Think I`ll just sit for a while.

*` It`s Back In Our Hands

2007-11-19T03:15:00.000+08:00

*` It`s Back In Our Hands

First thing i did this morning was to check the Euro 2008 results, Italy beat Scotland 2-1, poor Scotland, they did extremely well and i think their time will come soon. ISrael beat Russia 2-1 at home, this means England just need a draw. All those talks of them not being able to qualify are now useless, but if Mclaren still fail to bring them there, i think his head will be chopped off.

So there, England fans, rejoice!! We might be able to England at Euro 2008 afterall. I`m just being a tad bit optimistic. Good luck, boys!

I don`t want this moment, to ever end,
Where everything`s nothing, without you.
I`ll wait here forever just to, to see you smile,
Cause it`s true, I am nothing without you.

*` Cry Me A Fucking River

2007-11-17T19:01:00.002+08:00

*` Cry Me A Fucking River

There are people you don`t need in your life, and you figure that out along the way. You may think you can`t survive without them, the truth is, we can do just fine. You can make me feel so incredibly perfect, but then again, you can make me feel so incredibly worthless. It happens to everyone as they grow up. You find out who you are and what you want, and then you realize that the people you`ve known forever don`t see things the way you do. So you keep the memories, but you find yourself moving on.

For me, the entire sum of existence is in the magic of being needed by just one person. I wonder how many times we forgive, just because we don`t want to lose someone. Even if they don`t deserve our forgiveness. You forgive thinking that they might change, but it turns out, once people change, they tend to stay that way. There`s three sides to every story. One person`s side. The other person`s side. And the truth. But the truth never comes out, because everyone lies just to keep the story interesting. I`m not being a bitch. I just have low bullshit tolerance.

There are two kinds of people in your life. The ones that are going to pick you up, and the ones that are going to push you down. But in the end, you`ll thank them both. Just because in a twisted kind of way, they are the ones that make you who you are today. All I want is one person. One person to hold me down and force me to say how I really feel. Not tell me what they think i want to hear. I want to hear the truth. I want someone to say, puimun, you`ve fucked up. Move on. One person to really care about what I have to say. One person to hug me and tell me things will be okay, even if they won`t.

Have you ever felt like you became the worst version of yourself? I have, and trust me, it makes you feel like a damn loser. Sometimes you need to walk alone, just to make sure you still can. Just to know that you are strong enough to be left alone. Because in the end of the day, people leave, they move on with their life, and you have to get on with life too.

It`s hard to watch things change when all you want is for them to stay the same. It`s funny but stupid how you want everything and nothing at the same time. It`s crazy when you want to let go, but you keep holding on, and when you want to move on, but you`re stuck right where you started. When feelings come and go and you can`t decide what you want. When you have so many things to say, but you don`t know where to start.

I know there are some things you can`t change. I know there are some situations where apologies hold no bearings. I know that twists of fate bring people together, and sometimes, "everything happens for a reason" can tear them apart. I know that I will never forget you, for you will always have a place in my heart. It`s just the matter of whether you will still remember me. You know, sometimes I sit and think about everything we`ve been through and what we`ve done. And I think that if I were to have done it with someone else, it wouldn't have meant as much.

You can feel when someone you hold close to your heart is slipping away, little by little. It`s when the mere thought of losing a friend can bring you to tears almost instantly. The pain you feel can crush your entire heart. Yet everything you try to do to solve the problem only pushes them further and further away from you. When they only chance of getting back to the way things were in the beginning is to hope this person realizes what they may be losing. And I knew in that moment that we had somehow became strangers. And it kills me to say this, but i really think things have changed, drastically.

Sometimes you just have to realize that you can`t have it all. You can`t fix what you`ve done, you just have to move one and try to be happy. Even if it`s the hardest thing you'll ever have to do. Here`s a point in life where you get tired of chasing everyone and trying to fix everything. But it`s not giving up, it`s realizing you don`t need certain people and all that bullshit they bring. And this is when you`ve finally given up and not care about anything at all. When you remember how hard it is to change yourself, you begin to understand what little chance we have of changing others. Change is a funny thing. We are never quite sure what we are becoming, or why. Then one day, we look at ourselves and wonder who we are and how we got there.

The oddest things hurt me. Random things that seem so small, but get stuck in my head and repeat over and over. I guess this is why i`m still wide awake at this time, doing this. Unless you`ve lived my life, don`t judge me because you don`t know, never have and never will know every little thing about me.

Don`t worry about me, in the end I`ll be fine. I always do. I`m just the girl forgotten, the girl that always get left behind. I`m so used to it, it barely does anything for me anymore.

Dearly Beloved, we are gathered here together to mourn the unmailed letters and the lonely Decembers. The children ask "Does it ever go away?" They`'re asking about heartache and you know better than to lie so you answer truthfully and you say, " No, it doesn`t. It doesn`t go away." One day you`re jumping in puddles and the next thing you know 30 years have passed and you`re telling your kids to walk around them. Everyone is taught to look both ways before crossing the street and to talk quietly in the library, but no one ever learns anything that matters. Like how to keep breathing when your heart breaks in half.

*` Sisterly Love

2007-11-15T16:15:00.000+08:00

*` Sisterly Love

Went klcc with that girl today. Wanted to watch movie, but there was nothing much on, but the line was crazy. And most of them were *ahem*. Yeah, so lucky for me, i`ve already booked my tics so didn`t have to get in line. Is it a holiday today? Hmm. Anyway we didn`t do much, had lunch at Chilis, did a lil shopping, ate some bagels, had Starbucks latte(gosh, that was good), and watched 30 days of night.

Pictures:

The awesome chips.

What she ate. Chicken something.

Mine, the lamb shoulder.

That`s her.

And that`s me. You can see that we`re not very pretty. I`m insane.

And this is what was left of the food.

Sorry i don`t like vege.

She couldn`t even finish half of it. Skinny *****!!

We couldn`t finish the chips at first, the salsa sauce was so bad, but in the end we managed to stuff it all in.

There.

She did that. Forgive her, she`s 16.

And that`s the line i was talking about.

Bought this, when i saw it, it was so pretty, now i don`t know.. I`m such a loser. Is it that ugly?? I think i was probably drunk when i bought this. Omg.

The bagels.

Besides, wasting on that purse, i had a really good time today. I just love being a girl. :)

----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Just finished watching Friday Night Lights, the best fucking show ever. It`s apparently the best show you haven`t seen on TV. Gosh, i really cannot write down in words abt this series, but it had crying, and i had goosebumps all over during the finale. What more is there to say besides listen to me and WATCH IT!!!!!!!!!!

Pls.

XOXO.

See me jump through hoops for you
You stand there watching me performing
What exactly do you do?
Have you ever thought it`s you that`s boring?
Who the hell are you?

*` Finding Forever

2007-11-15T00:39:00.000+08:00

*` Finding Forever

This movie sucks!! It`s so fucking draggy. The storyline is fake, no club, i mean no club can get from 2-0 down and turn the game around to 3-2 in a freaking Champions League Final except for Manchester United(who can forget that game) and of course Liverpool. Maybe it`s just me but everything is just wrong in this movie. You get a few shots of Beckham here and there. And in this dressing room scene, every player has a shirt on and Mr Beckham is half naked. Besides, he looks ugly here. Yeah, hard to imagine right? It`s what this movie does. I mean yeah he`s hot, but it's just absurd to me.

The first movie was good, not great but good, maybe my expectations was too high. Oh well, wasted my time.

Britney`s album. :)

My dad`s in China right now (again!) surprisingly i don`t miss him so much this time around. Weird huh? I used to cry like a baby the first two times he went. Guess i`m stronger now? Oh please. I was looking through my past entries, i don`t know why was i so fucking depressed last time. I mean it was all for nothing. Gosh, was i stupid. I`m really glad it`s all over now. And this is what i have to say. Things change. And when they change, it will never go back to the way it were no matter how much you wished it would. Us girls are stronger than what we give ourselves credit for.

So enough shit for now, once again take care and all the best. Love all my friends. Especially the ones that have always been there for me.

What good is a life, with no one to share,
The light of the moon, the honor of a swear.
we can try to live the way in which you speak,
Taste the milk of your mother earth's love,
Spread the word of consciencness you see,
We are everything we need.

*` Close Your Eyes

2007-11-13T16:15:00.000+08:00

*` Close Your Eyes

I know i said i`ll talk about Bee Movie last week, but i`ll admit, i was lazy. So yeah, i`m doing it now.

The movie`s practically about bees obviously, about them going to work, getting honey, this and that. Overall i`m not gonna spoil it for you guys, but i think everyone should check it out. It`s cute, it`s funny and you`ll find yourself smiling when you come out of the cinema. That`s what happened to me.

I went to the premiere, mom got tics from Mix fm. And there was this bee mascot there! Took some pictures. Here it is.

The front cover of the ticket. So cute i know!

The details.

The mascot.

That`s it for today.

Take care & all the best.

XOXO

Been looking forward to the future
But my eyesight is going bad
And this crystal ball
It`s always cloudy except for
When you look into the past

*` Worse For The Wear

2007-11-13T11:15:00.000+08:00

*` Worse For The Wear

I hate Monday Blues. So anyway due to unforeseen circumstances, i have to wake up at sixfuckingthirty to send my brother off. The day before i couldn`t sleep, was tossing and turning till about 430. (Sorry Ash, didn`t your message) To sum it up, i was about half dead.

Woke up four hours later, got ready, met up with Vicki at Pavilion. She was like a sampat lil monkey, it`s like she haven`t been to kl before. I`m serious. Ate at Madam Kwan`s, felt so damn full after that. Walked around abit, wanted to buy some clothes but it wasn`t meant to be.
You guys know about Vinci accessories right? I think it`s kinda new. I want to buy everything from there. Seriously. It`s gorgeous, abit on the pricey side but it`s really pretty. Go check it out, it`s inside Padini Concept Store. Ash, i bought you a present!!

I had great fun today but i really wished it could all go back to the way things were. The animal crackers.

Worse of all, i binged on donuts again. Argh, i have no self control at all!! HELP!

K, pictures.. As you can see, i`m not really in the mood to write too much.

I had to put this up, she looks so pretty here. :)

No Vic, you don`t look like Paul Frank.

At JCO Donuts & Coffee

The stuff i bought. It doesn`t look nice here but trust me it`s really pretty when you see it up close.

The other day @ Amcorp

Went crazy buying dvds and movies. I spent about 200 bucks on that. I`m a spendthrift i know. I had a great time, we must meet up again, promise?

All right, i`m off now.

Take care.

XOXO

A life in love a picture of a place I`m nowhere near,
A bleeding heart a good head start to anywhere but here.
Just let me out please let me out before I turn into,
A box of things reminding me how much I`m missing you.

*` We Threw It Away

2007-11-08T08:50:00.000+08:00

*` We Threw It Away

I have to admit, we threw away the chance, and what a great chance that was. To be leading twice in the game and letting them equalize at the dying minutes was just too much to bear. Rooney`s goal came at the perfect time just before half time, my family just went crazy, honestly the first half was kinda boring given that i was looking forward to the beautiful game that Arsenal have been known for but it was no show in a first half so i was relieved to that we scored first.

When they equalised, just barely a minute after half time, i was shocked actually. Fabregas is really a good player. Arsene Wenger has done a very good job. And he`s not even 20 yet! So the game was 1-1 till about the 82nd minute when Louis Saha gave the ball to Patrice Evra, very nicely done mind you, then Ronaldo came and scored! I thought, we had it. It was ours. Then 3 wonderful minutes were added and William Gallas scored at the last possible minute, and the goal didn`t even touch the back of the goal but it did crossed the line. Kudos to the linesman for seeing that. Good for him. So there, it was a good game nonetheless. Both sides were great but i really thought there should be a winner and not a draw. Oh well, maybe next time in Old Trafford.

Liverpool went crazy yesterday scoring 8 fucking goals against Besiktas in a Champions League match. That`s a CL record. They are just so unpredictable. They needed three wins out of their last 3 games, and they did it with style. Good job.

Was watching Oprah just now, yes i actually watch Hallmark, and it was a Valentine`s day special. It was so good and sweet. She did these stories about love and all that. Was crying for one hour. That`s crazy even for someone like me. Lol.

Went for Bee Movie yesterday. It was really good. The movie opens today. Go watch it!! Gonna talk about that tmrw.

Till then, take care & good luck!

XOXO

There used to be a greying tower alone on the sea.
You became the light on the dark side of me.
Love remained a drug that`s the high and not the pill.

*` Without You I'm Nothing

2007-11-04T03:00:00.000+08:00

*` Without You I'm Nothing

Good morning people! The weekend is here! Trust me i`m not as excited as i sound. I`m just being lame. Anyway the sole reason i came online is because it`s Carina`s birthday!!

This girl is amazing i`m telling you. No words can describe how much i love this person. She`s the most honest, the smartest, and probably the nicest person in this fucked up world. Honestly, i`m so grateful to have known you for the past 7 years. Those were good times. You were there whenever i need you, and you always seem to be here next to me eventhough you`re miles away. I don`t think we have much in common except maybe Prison Break and Yellowcard, but somehow we just seem to click. There`s never a dull moment with you around. Love you girl!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, you chubby face!!

I was browsing for pictures of you and me, and i choose this because you look very pretty here. :) (Sorry i kinda ruined the picture)

All the best k? Muahh.

Happy belated to Kea Leng as well.

P/s i found this really amazing picture. See whether you guys can see what it is.

Btw, listen to Britney`s Blackout, at least give it a try. There`s no harm in that. Despite all the bad press that she`s been getting and there`s alot, this album is definitely better than all her previous works. And it`s number 1 in the i Tunes chart. That`s gonna mean something right?

This video is probably the most boring one i`ve ever seen, but Timbaland is awesome and this song is awesome.

Take care, everyone.

XOXO

You told me lies,
You made me believe,
It would be fine.
If there was nothing to see,
I`d be undressing in front of you,
I told you secrets that no one else knew.

*` So Much For Waking Up Early

2007-11-01T07:15:00.000+08:00

*` So Much For Waking Up Early

Don`t know why. Just couldn`t sleep yesterday. Was tossing and turning till freaking 530am!! That`s fucked up if you ask me. Thank god for Ipods seriously. Don`t know what i`ll do without music. This morning woke up at 8-fucking-30. I`m crazy.

Yesterday my bro thrashed me in Winning Eleven. That game is addictive i tell you. Gosh, i just love football so much, not because of the hot players (Torres! Ronaldo!) but it really is such a beautiful game. Can`t wait for the match this weekend. :) I feel so old and out of place. Kids nowadays are really "cool" They know way more than us when we were their age and it`s kinda scary to think about it sometimes. Well, guess that`s how it goes.

Btw,

HAPPY HALLOWEEN

Have fun playing dress up and scaring the hell out of everyone.

XOXO.

We watch the season,
Pull up it`s own stakes.
And catch the last weekend,
Of the last week,
Before the gold and the glimmer have been replaced;
Another sun soaked season fades away.

*` The Last Temptation

2007-10-30T14:16:00.000+08:00

*` The Last Temptation

It was an amazing match, and even more amazing goals. The players were amazing, and to think that there were so many players injured. :) This weekend`s Arsenal vs Man U is gonna be awesome.

I`m sure you`ve heard about the new Twisties Chipster but i`ve only just tried it recently and i gotta say it`s really good. It`s not so salty like Lays even though i used to love it, and it`s half the price. I`m addicted to it. Bought two big packets today. My body is so unhealthy right now.

Sri Garden had open day last week, went with my family, and as you know there were prefects and all that being oh-so-friendly, when i walked into that school, felt a rush of emotions. High school is really an important phase of growing up. Going through this and that. Sigh. So anyway, this perfect was suppose to bring us around but then i was so bored i left. And guess what, he asked for my sister`s number. His "pick-up line" was so chessy. He said can i have your number so we can keep in touch? And my sister gave him! Too bad i wasn`t there to witness this. My mom just laughed at her. Haha. Can`t believe my sister is better looking than me. Nah, just kidding. But i just can`t stop laughing.

It`s been ages since i`ve been to the cinema, i feel so lost right now. It seems like there`s not much showing in the cinemas lately. I`m looking forward to Stardust though just cause there`s nothing else that interest me.

I was watching A Walk To Remember the other day and gosh i love it! It`s tear-jerkingly sweet. Mandy Moore is really amazing in this movie. Love it! Brings back so much memories. I remember i was in f2 when this movie came out and everyone`s was talking about this, the soundtrack`s really good as well. I miss high school.

Tomorrow`s Halloween so have fun people!!

K, i`m off now.
Take care boys and girls and read more books!

XOXO

Maybe redemption has stories to tell,
Maybe forgiveness is right where you fell.
Where can you run to escape from yourself?
Where you gonna go?
Where you gonna go?
Salvation is here.

*` Just Because...

2007-10-26T13:17:00.000+08:00

*` Just Because...

Sometimes it`s hard to look in the mirror.To see that face that everyone says is so pretty but it just looks plain to me. Sometimes it`s easier to wake up and forget your dreams because of life.. but you can`t do that.

The easiest thing to do in life is be depressed. The hardest thing to do is to get up and say to yourself "Things will get better" even though your never convinced by that. But it helps to pretend. Sometimes I sit back and watch everyone cry out for attention, and everyone else goes "Oh they`re retarded." But I think..why go to that length to get attention? Maybe they really need it?

Sometimes i wake up in the morning and say to myself, "If I give up today, I promise I`ll always get back up tomorrow and try again." Cause sometimes trying to be a saint and sticking with the most stubborn of people, it makes it so much easier to look in that mirror.

And now I`ve been gone for so long,
I can`t remember who was wrong,
All innocence is long gone;
I pledge allegiance to a world of disbelief,
Where I belong.

*` Picking Up The Pieces

2007-10-25T03:45:00.000+08:00

*` Picking Up The Pieces

Morning. As you know, i went PD for the umpteenth time during the Raya holidays. I love PD, not for the beach but for the food. :) This time, i stayed at The Avilion PD. That place is serene i`m telling you. You have to be there to really know what i`m talking about. The pictures i took are not that clear cuz i`m lazy to upload from my cam, i took the pics from my camera phone, so bear with it.

Views of the room:-

The Pool, there were two. But i only managed to take one. This is the kid`s pool. The adult pool is really pretty as well. And the best thing is, it`s 24 hrs! So cool right?

There were some pets stuff going on where you can actually feed the rabbits, and birds and all that. The rabbits were adorable!!

For the rest of the pic, i`m not gonna put tags. See for yourself.

My brother caught this lil crab, we had to let it go cuz it was just too small. Lol.

Look how much my brother loves me. Pfft.

I took this in the room`s bathroom. It`s really pretty!! Too bad i`ve got no pictures. It`s like open concept, you can see the sea and sky while you`re showering. It`s really cool. I wanna go there again, any takers?? I think they`re doing some holiday promotion. Let`s all go!!

Now just recap. First, England lost to Russia which means their qualification for Euro 2008 is now hanging by a thread, then they lost the Rugby World Cup which was really sad if you ask me, then Hamilton lost in F1. It`s just not England`s week. Bleh. I was feeling really down after England`s loss to Russia, not that it`s any of my business but can you imagine any tournament without England? I just can`t. I know they still have a chance but come on what are the odds? Say what you want about Sven but at least he got them till the quaterfinals for the three tournaments he was in charge. That`s no easy feat you know. To conclude, Steve sucks and they seriously need someone good. Guus Hiddink is really awesome i think. I`ve been a fan since he single-handedly took South Korea to the semi finals. Those were the days.

This show is called Friday Night Lights. It`s loosely based on the 2004 movie by the same name. It`s not all about football as i first thought it would be. It takes on other issues as well. It was probably the most underrated show of 2006, now in it`s 2nd season currently showing in the US. I can`t say how good this show is because no one would believe me. So if you can, just give it a try and you`ll probably love like i do. :) It`s not very popular among fans, but it`s well received among the press. They get really good reviews. You know for me, i don`t watch the popular shows, for eg, Heroes. It was really good the first season and by the first epi i`m addicted but then it died down. I honestly don`t get why it`s so popular that Star World had to repeat it for like a million times. Is it really that good? I don`t think so. I`m in love with Gossip Girl as well just cause they have really hot people in it. It`s like my Tree Hill, it`s only coming back next year! So you get my point.

Girls, let`s go to the beach!!

Till then, take care.

XOXO

When the war has took it`s part,
When the world has dealt it`s cards;
If the hand is hard,
Together we`ll mend your heart.

*` In My Own Words

2007-10-23T14:14:00.000+08:00

*` In My Own Words

Hey everyone. I`m back, like finally i`m able to get my ass back to the front of the computer and be a good blogger and update all you readers (if there`s still any) on what`s been going on with my life.

So here it goes. I know i`ve been M.I.A for goodness knows how long, and i sincerely apologize for that. It`s just that i`ve gotten sick and since then i`ve practically became a fat ass couch potato, not that i wasn`t before, but i would watch tv for like hours and hours, ordering takeouts and such, basically just wasting my time away. But now i realize how that i should at least write something here, i know this blog of mine has been such a bore lately, i guess i`m having writer`s block. Haha. Nothing seems to interest me anymore. I do get excited when i see something interesting and my mind is filled with words of how i`m gonna write about this here, but few hours later, i either forget about it, or i`m just PLAIN lazy. Call me a pig, i deserve it. I promise i`ll do better my dear readers, so don`t leave me alone!! I`ve not much friends left so yeah you get the point.

Went shopping last week since there are new malls opening.And i`ve yet to spend my birthday money. I`ve been feeling depressed from all the staying at home shit, so i decided to leave the house. Went Pavilion on Friday and boy, was it pretty! I`m like an excited lil 11 year old jumping around, my eyes huge with fascination. The design is fantastic and it`s just plain gorgeous. There are lots of varieties ranging from your average surfing brand to couture. Oh, did i mention the good food? Lots of restaurants to choose from and it`s mostly situated on the same floor so it`s pretty convenient.

Went The Gardens, MV. It was quite boring for me cuz there was nothing much there, and yes it`s all too classy for someone like me. I like MV better. :) I don`t really like that place so i`ve got nothing to say. Point made.

I`ve been there once when it just opened, but didn`t really walk around as i had limited time. But if you were at the 1st floor, where all the restaurants are at, one can`t help but notice the HUGE line at JCO Donuts & Coffee. It`s originally from Indonesia and now it has opened it`s first franchise here in Malaysia. I don`t know about you, but for me, once i see the long line, i would just leave. I couldn`t bother with the waiting and all that. We`re becoming like Singaporeans!! Anyway, the 2nd time i was there, decided to give it a try. Bought a dozen that cost me RM 19. I didn`t take any pictures sorry for that so i took some off the net.

My favourites are the glazed and the snowy one. Okay i`ll tell you what i think. Do not buy the Tiramisu one even though you`re a fan. My sister, she`s like the no.1 fan of Tiramisu and she hated it. So unless you`re willing to take a risk buy it. There`s the Strawberry one which is new, i tried it and it tasted like eating the chupa chups lollipop and the sweetness *10. It was really bad for me. There`s the strawberry cream inside which made it even worse. I didn`t try all flavours, but there was one with peanut butter inside with white chocolate on top, that was weird but it`s because i hate peanut butter. I `ve tried one in Singapore where they put chocolate filling and it tastes SO MUCH better. I still craved for it even though it was last year when i tried it.

Bought quite a number of things, shopping does make one girl better, even though it doesn`t last very long. And guess what?! I finally bought the Yellowcard new album. I mean, i finally FOUND it. After all this time, i was so high i`m telling you. It might be stupid of me to buy the ori cd where i`ve all the songs in the album already, but i don`t know why. This is the first time since 2002 i`ve bought an original cd. Haha. But for me it was worth every penny. The album rocks!

Went the Curve the next day. And who can resist the smell of fresh baked doughnuts?? So despite my mind telling me that i`m gonna become like some fat obese 19 year old, i went ahead to Big Apple Donuts and bought a dozen. It was cheaper than JCO, only RM 17. For me, Big Apple taste better and it`s more fresh. I absolutely LOVE the glazed one and the snowy one. It so pretty and taste so good. Try the oreo one and you`d suprised. It doesn`t taste like Oreo at all, not that sweet at least.

Looks so good doesn`t it?

I remember doing this survey this time last year and i got 20 bucks from answering questions. Lol. If i had to compare i would Big Apple`s better, i) the price, ii) and of course the freshness. :)

I deserve to be killed. Because the next day i went Cheras and there it was. Big Apple Donuts. Damn it! What`s a girl to do?

This time i bough half dozen, that`s better right? LOL. Eventhough i know all the donuts are all going down my ass, as if it`s not big enough already, but i just can`t control myself, It like right in front of my face. Bought Famous Amos as well. :(

Now i can say, i`m OFFICIALLY broke! Gotta work my ass off then.

p/s I`ve got lots more to talk about, but Blogger is being such a bitch yet again. It took me 2 hours for this and i just don`t have the patience and i`m awfully hungry as usual. But tomorrow i`ll try to come online and i`ll talk Friday Night Lights, this series that i`ve been crazy about, English football (England, grr), rugby, f1, yeah boring isin`t?

K, i`m off. Bttw, everyone listen to DJ Tiesto - In The Dark. Love it.

Take care everyone.

XOXO.

Is there anyone out there?
Is there anyone now?
All I need are the details,
Just to find a way out.

*` A Weekend In The City

2007-10-09T03:20:00.000+08:00

*` A Weekend In The City

Sorry for not posting lately. Been sick for the past week. Still feeling the blues. I know, i`m such a weak baby. :( I`ll update when i get better soon. So much to talk about yet so little time.

Take care everyone.

The haze`s back again and here`s to weeks and weeks of blur vision and smelly weather!

P/s Ash, we`ll go out soon. I promise.

*` When All That`s Left Are The Memories

2007-10-06T12:17:00.000+08:00

*` When All That`s Left Are The Memories

I`ll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You`ve been the only thing that`s right
In all I`ve done

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we`ll make it anywhere
Away from here

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I`ll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we`ll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can`t raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do

Light up...

Slower slower
We don`t have time for that
All I want is to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads

Have heart my dear
We`re bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess

*` This Vision We Had

2007-09-28T05:50:00.000+08:00

*` This Vision We Had

Hey people! I`m gonna talk about football today no doubt about it. In a week where Liverpool`s Fernando Torres scored his first hat-trick, and Arsenal`s youngsters beat Newcastle, 2-0, Manchester United was the one left out with them losing 0-2 to Coventry City. I was like, what? 2-0? That`s crazy. It`s just so disappointing i don`t know what to say. They should`ve done better seriously.

How`s everyone doing?

Take care k?

‘Maybe later we can start one
Start a new relationship
You call it friendship or call it your second chance for you
Get on your knees and beg to me
Not to call you names behind your back or to your face
You`re nothing but my closing window’

*` Teenage Dirtbag

2007-09-25T14:45:00.000+08:00

*` Teenage Dirtbag

Hey just wanna say thanks for all the wishes, and it was really sweet of you guys to remember it. There were some surprising ones and made me realise that i`m not forgotten among my friends. This is the first one 'celebrating' my birthday without them, feels so weird. But i`m sure when they all get back, it`ll be like old times.

Once again, thank you boys and girls. You guys are amazing. :)

Thanks for the call, sung and jess. After talking to you guys, DIGI reduced my money!! Like 20 bucks. But no worries, it was worth it.

K, pictures.

The Day.

The Cake.

The Birthday Girl.

Again, thanks for everything. It`s amazing how much can change in just one year.
Cheers.

‘I see you crying and it rains
Washing away the bad days
Washing away the pain loss brings
And then you smile though it aches
Cos you don't believe in mistakes
Just that we made a mess of things’

*` Paper Bags & Plastic Hearts

2007-09-22T03:45:00.000+08:00

*` Paper Bags & Plastic Hearts

Hey people! There`s this new place call Pavilion opening. Since i didn`t go, i`ll show you guys the invitation cuz it`s soo pretty! Btw, this was the invitation for the opening of Parkson Pavilion, not the whole place.

The theme was 'Glitzy Gold' hence the colour.

I still don`t know who`s the international act but i doubt it`s someone expensive. No offense.

What`s inside.

Close up of the details.

The 'package'.

I`m telling you, the pictures doesn`t do it justice. It looks really cool like for real! Sorry about that.

In other unrelated news, Jose Morinho has quit as Chelsea manager. Apparently it sent shock waves all over the football world. Honestly, i`m kinda sad that he left because he brought so much to the Chelsea club in just 3 years. You have to remember Chelsea has not been winning the Premier League for 50 years!! That crzy man. As much as i hate him, i gotta say he`s really a 'special one' :)

But, this means that Chelsea will be without him, and i don`t think they can do anything special this season. Sorry Chelsea fans! Come on, support Manchester!!

That`s all.
Take care, y'all. (excuse me for my lameness)

p/s Jeeva, Sean Kingston reminds me of you! Lol

“I dreamed I was dying; as I so often do
And when I awoke I was sure it was true
I ran to the window; threw my head to the sky
And said whoever is up there, please don`t let me die.”

*` Everything We Had

2007-09-19T14:00:00.000+08:00

*` Everything We Had

Just finished watching new episode of Prison. Well, let`s just say it`s good to see Michael again. He`s gorgeous! Read some news that he was gay and all that. I really hope that it`s not true because it`s bad enough that us girls can just drool over him and can`t do anything about it, and now we have to see him with guys. That`s too much to take.

That`s all for today. More news tomorrow.

Love.
“All of the wasted timing
Hours that were left behind me
Answers that we`ll never find
They don't mean a thing tonight”

*` When It All Falls Apart

2007-09-14T13:09:00.000+08:00

*` When It All Falls Apart

Hey everyone. I`m back! And you know what, in just 4 days that i`ve been sick, i lost 5kg! That`s crazy. But now i`m welcoming back the fats in my body. Still have a lil bit of sore throat from the vomiting, and my tummy still hurts from time to time. But all`s well and good. Thanks for all the concern.

It`s been a crazy week with all the drama that has been happening. First, the Britney 'comeback'. I used to love her man. And so much football action went on. England!!! This is how they should be playing! Like seriously look at the players they have! And the goals were awesome.

Stayed home for the whole week as you know, watching old dramas in front of the computer, i`m seriously going blind soon. Prison Break`s back on next Monday! Heroes as well. Yay, good times. :)

That`s about it. Gonna watch tv now.

Take care you guys and i mean it.

XOXO

“Pictures of you,
Pictures of me,
Remind us all of what we could have been.”

*` A Fever You Can`t Sweat Out

2007-09-11T04:35:00.001+08:00

*` A Fever You Can`t Sweat Out

Pui Mun is down with fever. That`s twice in three months. I`m so weak!! Vomiting and diarrhoe is no fun at all. Pray for me, will you?

I`m going out of my mind.
“Keep breathing, cause I`m not leaving you anymore
Believe it, hold on to me and, never let me go.”

*` Young And Hopeless

2007-09-09T05:45:00.000+08:00

*` Young And Hopeless

Pictures from Bakerzin. The tapas are awesome!!

Yumm~

“Who has to know when we live such fragile lives,
It's the best way we survive.”

*` Crazy/Beautiful

2007-09-08T02:17:00.000+08:00

*` Crazy/Beautiful

Hey everyone. What`s up? The weather`s so fucked up lately don`t you think? Bloody hot. I hate it. :( Can we please save the world? Lol. Was at the salon yesterday, there was this cute lil girl who came in doing her manicure and pedicure. (kids are so spoiled nowadays) But that`s not my point, i found out she has cancer. She`s only 6 years old! Poor thing! They had to cut her hair off. And she was just so adorable, you wouldn`t know that she`s sick, and it`s her 4rd stage. Kids are amazing that way huh. I really wish she could go through this whole thing. Her mom was tearing when she talked about it. Damn sad.

So, my birthday`s coming up and this is the first time i`m not feeling excited or whatsoever. That`s very rare in my case mind you. Sigh, besides all my friends are away. Guess it`ll be a very lonely one. Gotta get used to this i guess.

That`s about it.
Take care ppl.

p/s I`m want the Yellowcard album but i can`t seem to find it anywhere!! Been looking everywhere. Why la why!

XOXO

“Sometimes we swim around,
Like the dolphins in the ocean of our hearts.”

*` Will You Miss Me At All?

2007-09-04T02:09:00.000+08:00

*` Will You Miss Me At All?

Hey. Sorry you had to look at the same page for so long. It`s just that i`ve been very lazy i have to admit. But no i`m back so hopefully i`ll update more often. I just got back yesterday from my grandmother`s place. been traveling like mad lately. I`m totally wasted. Besides that nothing much happened, so yeah another boring week. Sorry you had to read this. :(

It was Wilson`s birthday yesterday so HAPPY BELATED, YOU P.O.S.!!

Btw, Chelsea lost!! Haha. Liverpool. *Clap clap. Should i support Liverpool instead? Hmmm.

Take care everyone.
Yellowcard - the BEST

XOXO

I guess that it`s typical to cling to memories you`ll never
get back again and to sort through old photographs of a
summer long ago or a friend that you used to know.

*` Kenangan Terindah

2007-08-29T13:00:00.000+08:00

*` Kenangan Terindah

Hey everyone, i`m back. Penang was awesome. Had so much fun there. And i got sun-burnt! So freaking tanned right now. Looks even more like an Indian. Pictures will be up soon when i`m free. Been busy with work and i`ve been travelling back and forth form my place to the new area. Petrol very expensive. Nothing much happened. Just a short post today.

Seems like no one missed me. Damn.

p/s Listen to Yellowcard`s Paper Wall album. It`s amazingly beautiful. Listen carefully to the lyrics. It`s really really good. I wanna see them LIVE!

It`s nice to smile when I get your phone call in mind, but I`d rather have you here with me right next to me, I miss the way you hold me tight.

*` I Wish We All Could Win

2007-08-20T21:18:00.000+08:00

*` I Wish We All Could Win

Hey everyone. I`ll be heading off to Penang early in the morning tomorrow which sucks cause i absolutely HATE waking up so damn early. ): Hopefully this trip will do me some good because i think i seriously need to get out and relax abit. I`m getting so angry altely, haven`t been sleeping well also. So guys if you get a message from me late at night, please do reply. Anyway i`ll be back on Friday, you guys better miss me. Lol.

Football. Fernando Torres scored his 1st Liverpool goal!!. Good for them. Manchester is having their worst ever Premier League sucks. Omg. Yesterday`s game was a disaster for me. they had so many chances yet they couldn`t score. That`s f`ked up. Hopefully they`ll be able to bounce back from this slump or whatever they`re going through.

My parents are at it again. My weekend sucked. How about yours?

That`s about it.
Take care everyone.

Happy holidays.

*` These Friends Of Mine

2007-08-18T04:45:00.000+08:00

*` These Friends Of Mine

Hey, how`s everyone doing? Just finished watching antm. It was crazy, i think i`m going blind soon. Been sitting in front of the comp for i don`t know how long but definitely longer that i should have. I really think my eyes are like dying, feel like an old woman. I have to sit so close to the tv, i think i`m just gonna wake up one day and not being able to see anything. :(

Ok, I`m gonna spoil this so read it if you don`t wanna know who`s the winner. Jaslene, i really don`t think she should win. I mean seriously, she wayy too thin and she was like a drag queen!! And i think the reason she won is because she didn`t make it last time and the producers wanted to send a positive message or something. How is it possible that she didn`t even make it to the house last season and now she`s the winner?! It`s stupid. Except for Caridee, i think not one of the winner of antm was good. I mean it`s just so commercialized. Naima was awesome as well. But the rest of them were just.. I hated Nicole from season 5, she`s just... But hey, that`s just me.

Enough about that. What have you guys been up to? I`m addicted to MSN`s Sudoku. It`s so fun to play. Haha. Other than that, nothing much happened this week. Oh, i`m going Penang next week. OMG! Can`t wait. The food, the beach, the guys. It`s gonna be awesome.

That`s about it. Hvae a great weekend and watch badminton. Support the locals.

p/s Manu pls start winning again. Like seriously. I`m gonna miss Ronaldo. :(

Toodles.
Hugs & Kisses.

*` Pictures Of You

2007-08-15T04:55:00.000+08:00

*` Pictures Of You

I`ll be the first one to say I`m not perfect, or anywhere near it. I`ve made mistakes, that I`m not afraid to admit, and done a lot of things that I regret. I`ve done a lot of stupid things, cause of things that have been done to me.

I`ve made snap-judgements, and said some things I didn`t mean, but trust me, I feel bad, and would do anything to take those moments back. I guess the point is, no one`s perfect, everyone makes mistakes, but there`s a difference, cause some people learn from those mistakes and try to change in the future, and others don`t. What I`m trying to say is, don`t be the person making the mistake of hating someone based on one of their mistakes, be the person forgiving someone for a thing they`ve done. Don`t judge people before you know them, or what has made them that way.

Basically, give everyone a second chance, and maybe even a third, and a fourth, or however many it takes for them to get it right. People change constantly, I know I have, not always for the better, but not always for the worse. As you make mistakes, you learn; as you learn, you change; as you change, you grow; and as you have grown, you`ve become who you are today.

*` Chivalry Is Dead

2007-08-09T12:30:00.000+08:00

*` Chivalry Is Dead

Hey, how`s everyone doing? I`ve been working my ass off lately, i don`t know why. Out of sudden, there`s so many things to do. Had to wait for my mom at the bus stop outside the mall to pick me up.

Then this Malay girl in REALLY high heels pass by and guess what she fell on her knees. Poor thing right? For those of you who doesn`t know how hard it is for a girl to wlak on high heels on an uneven surface, let me tell you, it`s very terrible.

So back to the story, she fell and there were three guys standing there. But they just stood there!! I actually heard them saying in Malay "Janganlah pakai kasut tinggi." I`m like.. So being the helpful person i am, :) i went to her and did my thing. Haha. How nice of me right? My point is, where are all the gentlemen? I mean it`s pretty much a guy`s job to help a girl right? I`m sure most of the guys out there wants to be a hero or someone powerful or something. So guys, be a MAN and be more helpful the next time you see someone in need of your help.

Oh, and it`s Wing Li`s and Jeng Shuin`s birthday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY GUYS! Have a great one. :) This two fellas didn`t reply my message. At least say thank you?

Alright, that`s all i have to say.
Take care, people.
Toodles.

*` It`s All Over The Radio

2007-08-05T15:39:00.000+08:00

*` It`s All Over The Radio

Heard this song wayy before it became so popular it`s insane. Mix.fm is playing like every hour i swear! What do you guys think of underground bands that become famous and the whole world knows about them? Like Breaking Benjamin, Gym Class Heroes or Snow Patrol? Just doesn`t make sense to me. I used to think it was cool and all but now it`s getting annoying when they keep playing it non stop! I guess it`s a good thing for some people. Oh well, maybe it`s just me.

Enjoy.

*` Glory Glory, Man United!!

2007-08-05T08:35:00.000+08:00

*` Glory Glory, Man United!!

Hey everyone. How was your week? Mine was rather eventful with many ups and downs. Just the usual. Now i know getting a new place is really troublesome. You have to consider many things and obviously there will be a different opinion with everyone. Sometimes adults are just so immature, don`t you think? Gosh!

Nothing much to blog about. Can`t wait for the new season. It`s gonna be awesome because they`re gonna win it again and hopfully they`ll do well in Europe as well.

Take care everyone. Tag more you guys!!

p/s Watch this video. Everyone`s talking about it. "The Wonderkid". And Manu bought him! Genius.

Nicole Ritchie`s pregnant! Wow, what a suprise. *rolls eyes*

Toodles. :)

*` I Know This Much Is True

2007-08-01T03:45:00.000+08:00

*` I Know This Much Is True

Georgia Rule. Just watched this yesterday, and I must say despite the critics, I actually like this movie. And we`ve been eharing all the bad news about Lindsay Lohan that we forget that she can actually act. Even though her role in this movie seem pretty easy to tackle, but i really can`t imagine Hilary Duff or Kirsten Durst in this movie. Felicity Huffman from Desperate Housewives did a good jod and Jane Fonda was really good as well. Have you guys seen Four Brothers? The youngest brother`s in it. He looks abit different here. It`s not that bad and it`s not a chick flick, i think it actually has a message or something. Haha. :)

I miss these people!! It seems like whenever you leave a place, losing touch seems inevitable. Don`t you think?

I wanna open my mind. I wanna know if there`s a purpose to this life
Will I ever find it? I`m running out of time...

Have a good day, everyone.

*` Porcelain Doll With Tangled Hair

2007-07-31T14:00:00.001+08:00

*` Porcelain Doll With Tangled Hair

Hey everyone. Gonna talk about movies today. 2 weeks ago, finally watched Transformers.

It was, like everyone said, very good. Definitely the summer movie of the year. The effects and all were awesome as well. Not gonna elaborate much cuz i`m sure everyone has probably seen it at least twice, lol. If you haven`t go watch it again before it`s too late. Just like the Goo Goo Dolls song:Before It`s Too Late.

I dwled this movie months ago, but i was only able to get the perfect version few days ago. Have to get a new player as well. Anyway, this movie is now showing in the cinemas and everyone should check this out, like seriously. Shia LaBoeuf from Transformers. He`s in alot of movies this year right? Actually this movie released in the US way before Tranformers did and he voiced for Surf`s Up as well. I`m not gonna reveal too much about the plot but it`s about this boy who got sentenced with house arrest for his summer holiday. He becomes a voyeur as his interests turn outside the windows of his suburban towards those of his neighbours, which happened to include one hot chick and the other, which he begins to suspect is a serial killer. WATCH IT! That guy, he`s gonna be huge soon. And he`s only 21! Listen to "The Geeks Get The Girls" by American Hi-Fi.

The movie everyone was waiting for. I`m not a huge Harry Potter fan, somehow i`ve seen all the five movies i don`t know why. This one was much darker than the previous one, so much so that the movie doesn`t have much colour to it. Mostly grey or black background. And alot of ugly pink really. :( It wasn`t that bad but i really think it could`ve been better. We`ll just blame it on the book then. It was just too long. Oh, i really like the girl who plays Luna Lovegood. She`s so adorable!!

She was good in this one. I like!

The Manchester Asia Tour has ended. I watched only the last three games, but as i was watching it, it occurs to me that, whoever is responsible to the cancellation of the tour in Malaysia has ripped us off out chances of meeting the likes of Ryan Giggs and Paul Scholes which might not be in the team next year or the years to come. How can!! I`m looking forward to the next time they make a tour of Asia, but when will that be? Will they ever come here after all the controversial shit? I`m sure many fans of MU will hope so. I still can`t let it go though.

p/s Fernando Torres looks good in a Liverpool shirt but Ronaldo looks even better. :) Don`t you like MU`s new shirt? I love it.

Cheers.

*` You and Me and One Spotlight

2007-07-27T10:15:00.000+08:00

*` You and Me and One Spotlight

Read the Star front page. In a landmark decision yesterday, Justices Gopal Sri Ram, Zulkefli Ahmad Makinudin and Raus Sharif held that the boy, who turns 18 next month, had to be set free as there was no law that prescribed a sentence for a child convicted of murder. What?? The reason i`m posting this up is because the boy was from my high school. And he was actually found guilty and because he was a child when he was convicted of murder, he was set free. No offense, but i find this absurd.

And i quote :" The Court of Appeal upheld the conviction but ruled that the sentencing was “unconstitutional” as Section 97(2) of the Child Act 2001 which provided for this sentence violated the doctrine of separation of powers by consigning to the Executive the judicial power to set the term to be served by a juvenile offender." (Ash, we actually read about this!!)

What do you think about this case? Even though he was in prison for 5 years, i`m sure Malaysian law can do better than this. Last Thursday, the appellate court explored the possibility of applying the laws of England to sentence the boy to natural life for murder, in the absence of an appropriate sentence under Malaysian law. Does this mean just because we`re not an adult and there`s no law for child convicted of murder, he can be set free?

Hopefully, justice will be served.

-------
Went Mid Valley for some home expedition, met a few high school mates. Very random. Why does mc always go there? Lol. I`m recovering although i still get headaches, i feel so old! K, gotta shower now.

Take care everyone.
Get well soon, boys and girls. :)

*` Tears Dry On Their Own

2007-07-26T03:12:00.000+08:00

*` Tears Dry On Their Own

You change for two reasons;
Either you learn enough that you want to
Or you’ve been hurt enough that you have to.

"Between my pride and my promise. Between my lies and how the truth gets in the way.
The things I want to say to you get lost before they come. The only thing that`s worse than one is none."

*` Overnight Celebrity

2007-07-24T02:55:00.000+08:00

*` Overnight Celebrity

I`m back! I`ve been sick for about 2 weeks now. First had fever and cough, took some medicine then the next day my left hand had 3 lil red spots on them. First thought: dengue! I FREAKED out. Cried and cried like some 9 year old girl. The next day, several more red spots appeared on my right hand. I thought i definitely had it. I had dengue. I don`t know why i was so sure, somehow i just knew it. And i had this bad feeling as well. Then on Tuesday, went to the hospital cuz i was still having fever and got running nose somemore. Can`t breathe, seriously it sucks. So, obviously i need a blood test, the 45-minutes wait was like a life time. I was freaking nervous thinking about negative thoughts and how am gonna die at such a freaking young age! Ok. i don`t have dengue but i have low red blood cells, and the doctor said i had to eat more veggie. I`m like ?? This is even worse cuz now i don`t know what`s happening to my body, the red spots were still there and it looks scary. Fine, took some medicine. They gave me Panadol, mind you, and some cough medicine.

The best part is yet to come. The next had diarrhea. I literally jotted out of bed due to the pain i was having. :( Don`t wanna disgust you with the details but yeah it was very eww.. The next day, no diarrhea BUT i had rashes instead. All over my body. Thankfully not my face. I mean i would like kill myself if i had it on my face. The itchiness was very hard to bear i`m telling you. I was having my period as well. Just awesome isin`t? I freaked out yet again. Because i don`t know what`s wrong with my body and all that. My mom asked me not to take the medicine so i didn`t and it got better the next day and it`s slowly going down as i`m typing this.

2 weeks just whizzed past like that. Thank you, GOD for letting me get through this, from the bottom of my heart. :)

That`s what happened in case some of you were wondering. I`ll update soon. Promise.

Take care of your health, people!

Love.

*` Some People Want It All

2007-07-07T14:11:00.000+08:00

*` Some People Want It All

I spent Saturday watching dvds and Sunday was spent shopping!

It was great.

Dilemma!
Liverpool~ Gerrard, Alonso and TORRES
Manu~RONALDO,RONALDO, RONALDO (ok maybe Rooney)

I`ll support both. But my heart still belongs to you know what la. :)

*` Is Loneliness A Crime?

2007-07-05T13:30:00.000+08:00

*` Is Loneliness A Crime?

Dear Mom & Dad,

I`m extremely sorry that I`m just a screw up, but I have to deal with it every single day of my life, so you would think that it bothers me a lot more than it bothers you. Gosh, you`re both freaking adults and every single day tend to wonder why the hell did you guys get married. I mean seriously, it`s stupid. This year`s your 20th anniversary and how did we celebrate? Let me tell you, they freaking argued and we had to eat take-outs.

And guess what, my dad said it to my fucking face that if there "were" a divorce, the three of us would be living with my mom so he doesn`t wanna treat us too well. Tears were practically swimming down my already wet eyes. I`m a very cowardly person i can`t take it if anything were to happen to my parents. Guess what, he continued saying and these really horrifying things that i couldn`t even bear to listen. I had to blast my ipod and that couldn`t even cover it. He was practically shouting. It was so bad that at that moment, i wanted to run away and never come back. And mind you, i`ve never had these stupid thoughts of running away and doing all kinds of stupid things until now. I`m so happy i`m going out tmrw. No i`m a coward and i won`t runaway, where would i stay? When i need help, i had to scream my lungs out and yet no one would answer. But when she needs a little help, a whole flock of dogs would appear. Gees, i`m not that fugly am i?

Just because you're beautiful doesn't mean
you can treat people like they don't matter. (Oh, how true)

~~Dear~~ Who are you?,

The feeling`s so strong i just can`t erase it. Yesterday was probably one of the worse day of my already fucked up life and yeah you were the cost of it. Oh no, you guys might eb thinking, here she goes again with how her friend did this and did that. Sorry ppl, i`m still gonna continue writing. I just have to ask this if you had no intention to talk to me at all, why bother asking me out? Even M was being a better friend than you. I`m such a good actress, the Academy should give me an Oscar. I`m fucking serious.

There was this guy there who asked me what am i working as (cuz i`m working with my dad) and he`s like.. Prostitute ar? And knowing me i laughed it off and said you think so highly of me ar? Haha. Joke`s getting old buddy. Yeah, he had no respect for me at all.

Things have changed i realise that. Trust me i know what time and distance can do to a friendship even the long ones. But come on, we`re seeing each other after so long at least pretend to be happy to see me, not fucking ignore me and diss me at every chance you can get. Sometimes acting happy just makes it hurt that much more.I sound like some jealous girlfriend right? Oh no, eww i have better taste. God, damn depressing la.

I`m so glad you`re leaving.
Fuck off and don`t ever come back.

Now i know how Annie feels. Just never thought it would happened to me. The girl you claimed was you loved and would die for.

Gosh, i`m becoming so angry lately it`s pathetic. Me, Lau Pui Mun, the pathetic bitch.
Where are my friends?
WHEREEEEEEEEEEEE??

P/s Even Fernando Torres had to bully me. He`s going to Liverpool. :(
But hey, at least EPL also la. I`m gonna watch all their matches from now on.
Ronaldo, you`re still my NO. 1.

Damn random huh?

*` Face The Music

2007-07-04T11:07:00.000+08:00

*` Anthem Of Our Dying Day

Went out.
Only enjoyed the 1st hour.
Damn kao sad.

*` Forget December, it won`t be better.

*` Testing, 123...

2007-07-01T23:30:00.000+08:00

*` Testing, 123...

Technorati Profile

*` Just Making My Point

2007-07-01T19:23:00.000+08:00

*` Just Making My Point

Yeah, you`re beautiful but you don`t mean a thing to me. Being a grown up isin`t half as fun as growing up.

When i was 5, i can`t wait to be 12.
When i was 12, i can`t wait to be a high school student.
When i was 13, i can`t wait to be a senior.
When i was 16, it was no honeymoon year for me.
When i was 17, i can`t wait to get out of high school and be a college student.
When i was 18, i was probably having the time of my life, but i wasn`t happy, making me wanna go back to high school.

This year, i didn`t wish to be older or any smarter. I just wish i could turn back time.

Fcuking ironic, huh?

*` Too Young To Fight It

2007-06-30T13:55:00.000+08:00

*` Too Young To Fight It

It`s over. Just like that.
I`m exhausted. It`s tiring. Am not sleeping well which sucks the next morning thus i need my daily caffeine break and it`s making me sick. MSN being a bitch doesn`t help much as well. When i sms someone, that person doesn`t reply, it`s a very bitchy thing to do as well. When i`m actually asking for help, it`s not there! When shit happens, you wonder why didn`t i tell anyone. You didn`t ask, damn it.

What we were two years ago are definitely what we are not today. I know, people change but me and you? We`re more than that right? Distance is nothing and i don`t have time are just lame ass excuses you never get sick of. But it`s getting pretty old for me. I was there for you every single time and i actually listen. And i cared.

I need a time out. Happiness is so far away from me. Life is full of unexpected twists and turns and i managed to get through most of it. But it`s gonna take some time for me to get over this and say to myself thigns will never be the same no matter how much i`m trying to deny it.

So whoever reads this and still gives a shit about me, please do forgive me. Sometimes it may seem like i don`t care about you guys, but i do. Action speaks louder than words so just give me some time. I promise i`ll be the same old sarcastic girl that i used to be. That just seems so long ago...

*` Before Everything & After

2007-06-28T22:41:00.000+08:00

*` Before Everything & After

Before today, i was looking forward to tomorrow.
After today, i was looking forward to yesterday.

Wtf, i know.

Once again i tell myself never to do this again, and once again i failed.
Seems like i`m failing pretty much in everything i`m doing.

*` Does This Look Infected?

2007-06-28T11:45:00.000+08:00

*` Does This Look Infected?

Honestly, it`s nobody`s fault. I`m not sorry there`s really nothing much left to say between us. All those years gone down drain. What a waste, really.

We`re moving. FINALLY!!

*` Welcome Back, Bitch

2007-06-23T14:38:00.000+08:00

*` Welcome Back, Bitch

Can`t believe anyone would do something like that. Enough about that, watched "F4:Rise Of The Silver Surfer.

Isin`t Surfer guy the coolest ever?? I think he single handedly "saved" the movie.

The way he "came" out of the building was so wow! My mouth literally fell to the floor. I`m serious. Jessica Alba, not very pretty there. I think it`s the hair and make up. Chris Evans, gosh, what happened? This was slightly better thatn the first because Silver Surfer was there and yeah that`s about it.

Can`t wait for Transformers!

p/s i just dwled Georgia Rule, this supposedly awesome movie, and guess what it was some foreign film. And THAT was after i had to dwl this 3w player in order to watch a film that i didn`t understand at all! There was a hot chick though. :)

Guys, i really CANNOT wait for friday!!